How does one achieve true freedom from modern day society? Today we live in such a predictable world, We go to work or school, go home and go to bed, then wake up to do it all again the next day. I want to break free from that pattern and exist in a world where status and money are obsolete and useless objects. I don’t want to be part of some huge corporation or company and make tons of money… yet I still need to be able to finance the lifestyle that I desire. I’m told to strive for excellence which makes sense but I feel all that will do is just put me in some higher paying position at a larger company continuing the monotonous pattern that we are all so used to. Maybe I’m just looking at this too narrow-mindedly or cynically, I feel like a slave to society who is in a current position that also paralyzes me from progression. I am progressing in certain ways, yes but, I want to be out in the world living my life and I feel that my life is on “pause” and I can’t get it back into “play”. Art, music and skateboarding are the only things that truly matter to me and if I can find an effective, sufficient and practical way to make those things a part of my life without submitting to average social norms I would be at peace. At times I fear that I am too apathetic or lazy or maybe I’m just not in the right setting to fully thrive. I don’t want to be “normal”, I want to grow my hair to a ridiculous length and dye it some crazy color. I want to live life with constant excitement, I want to help people and make people feel good. I want to be at peace with the parts of myself that I cannot change. All I want is to be HAPPY. But how do I begin to achieve these things? I have to start somewhere, but I’m scared, nervous…. apprehensive. I can’t wait for the day when I can finally unjam the “play button” and just LIVE as unpredictably as possible, and if I die young in the process then know that I tried to have the greatest time while I was here.