The Notebook of a Return to Native Land seems to be a difficult read to me in general because the author relates ideas that I never would expect to be related. For instance, one part that confused me was when it stated, “I declare my crimes and that there is nothing to say in my defense. Dances. Idols. An apostate. I too” (Cesaire 19). The reason why this confused me was because random words were thrown together and I could not find the relevance and the correlation between these words and what the speaker was saying. In this quote, the speaker talks about how s/he admits that s/he committed crimes and there is nothing s/he can say to defend his/herself. Afterwards, the speaker says words such as “dances” “idols” and “apostate” which I could not understand. The notion of comparing ideas together reminded me of the Surrealism Introduction text by Andre Breton since he stated that if the relation between two realities is distant yet accurate, the image will be stronger. However, for me, it was difficult to create a strong image in mind since I could not relate the ideas “dance” “idols” and “apostate”. I had to reread it a couple of times and look up the word “apostate” to slightly understand the sentence better. Once I realized that an “apostate” is one who rejects a religious belief, I put it into context and interpreted the speaker to not really believe in religion or stopped believing in religion after realizing all the sins committed. Another way to deal with the difficult of the passage was to read the sentence that comes before or after. I read the sentence that comes after: “I have assassinated God with my laziness with my words with my gestures with my obscene songs” (Cesaire 19). Through this, I guessed that the idols might refer to a type of God that this person might formally worship since s/he has now “killed” God with his/her sins. As a result, I interpreted these sentences as the speaker having committed so many sins and realizing it, that s/he decide to renounce the idea of religion in general.