Ever since I was a young kid, I was also acting a few years older than my actual age. Why? I’m not exactly sure but I do think its in part due to the age gap between my siblings and I. The closest sibling in age to me is my brother, who is 8 years older than I am, then my other brother who is 12 years older and then my sister who is 14 years older. They’re all married with children now and as I was growing up I was always around them and their friends which may be the reasoning to my maturity.
Family baby
This was not my decision
What more can I do
During my senior year of high school, my schedule was extremely flexible so, naturally, I started to show up to the family office to try and get myself involved in the family business. I never really loved school but was able to accept the fact that there wasn’t really a choice and maintaining good grades weren’t an option, rather they were a must. As the year progressed, I slowly went from answering phone calls and doing basic non proprietary office tasks to assuming more major roles in the business. Once I graduated and that summer rolled around I was working full time, all summer long.
College is starting
Rather continue working
Why do I need school?
As I was preparing to start college I was planning on working 3 days of the week and doing 2 full days of school, that way I would be able to max out my days and not waste any of my time. A characteristic that my entire family has is that we like to always keep things moving and keep occupied at all times. Unfortunately, as a freshman you are a placed in a block schedule so my plans did not work out. The first semester I was barely able to go to work, Fridays and sometimes for about an hour or two after school. After getting a taste of the work life over the summer and then going back to school I was starting to miss it. No worrying about any assignments due that night or anything of that nature. My mom didn’t love that I was getting so involved at work because she knew it was going to affect my grades. Now, a year later, I am beginning to realize that my mom was right, and always will be. I’m starting to feel the pressure that I grew up too quickly and am not enjoying these years to their fullest potential, and so I am extremely conflicted.
Not sure what to do
Do I work or go to school?
Balance is needed
I have decided that its time to step back from work to balance out my life and school work. Although the semester is only starting, I am already feeling a difference and feel more relaxed. Balance is such an important factor and I’m glad I realized it now rather than later on in life.