My whole life, the only thing I could think of was giving up. It’s like there are only so many things that can hit a person at one time while growing up. Especially when the person is so young. People say just because IâÂÂm a teenager, I have nothing on my plate, meaning IâÂÂm not going through anything. That isnâÂÂt true at all. My problems started at the age of 5. And I have always let them get the best of me. But not anymore.
The fact that IâÂÂm such an isolator makes things worse. People say in order to get something or get somewhere you have to open your mouth to get it. And I donâÂÂt know how to do that.
But this time, IâÂÂm going to make a change. Being locked up isnâÂÂt going to help me get anywhere any time soon. IâÂÂm going into my senior year and IâÂÂm going to stand out. Being the little innocent, quiet girl is cute, but it can only be used in certain places and at certain times.
As my schoolâÂÂs Peer Leader my job is to open my mouth and say how I feel, and thatâÂÂs exactly what IâÂÂm going to do.
My anger and attitude problems arenâÂÂt going to get me anywhere. Often times I can’t help it because of what I grew up with. And sometimes I donâÂÂt notice it, but it is now my job to be happy and stay happy because you can only live life once, and to live life always sad and frustrating isnâÂÂt healthy and IâÂÂm going to wake up one day and regret it.
It will be a different me going into 12th grade. I notice I am growing up and that means that IâÂÂm not getting any younger, so why waste time on things that arenâÂÂt worth wasting time on?
I feel that I was put in this world to make a difference, and thatâÂÂs exactly what I am going to do.