I have always considered myself a normal individual. I don’t really care much about anything. I’m a blank slate roaming in the world. However, this blank slate roam no longer. Being unsure of my future I enter college without a dream. Being undecided of my future is scary. Maybe I am just too afraid of growing up. Maybe I am too afraid to the future. Maybe this is all an excuse to continue my easy going life. I have no goal in life. Baruch is just a place I ended up because it is a good college and is in the city. When I think of my future I shiver. I cannot just come up with an answer out of nowhere. People always say do something you truly want to do, to get a do job doing what you love to do the most. I have no interest. I am completely neutral. I have the ability to learn whatever there is to learn in whatever field yet i choose to sit idly by watching others.
I guess my main problem is finding this interest that everyone speaks of. Maybe I should take some time off and try to discover myself, discover what splash I can make in this world. Everything I’ve done in my life are either necessities or because I was told it was correct. Is attending school rights? Who’s to say it is? We are required to obtain knowledge in many field but do we really need the excess knowledge that does not concern our designated career or it is just another way for society to get into our pockets. For now I will continue my pointless days. Maybe I may just take a class that sparks fire and color my slate.
