New Soul —- Naim. Yael

I’m a new soul/I came to this strange world/Hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take. /But since I came here/Felt the joy and the fear/Finding myself making every possible mistake

The Show —- Lenka

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle/Life is a maze and love is a riddle/I don’t know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried/And I don’t know why

Today My Life Begins —- Bruno Mars

I will break these chains that bind me happiness will find me/Leave the past behind me today my life begins/A whole new world is waiting its mine for the taking/I know I can make it today my life begins

Fuckin’ Perfect —- P!nk

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood/Miss ‘No way, it’s all good’/It didn’t slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing/Underestimated, look I’m still around

Homesick —- Kings of Convenience

Every day there’s a boy in the mirror asking me…/What are you doing here?/Finding all my previous motives/growing increasingly unclear.

What Doesn’t Kill You —- Kelly Clarkson

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger/Stand a little taller/Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone/What doesn’t kill you makes a fighter/Footsteps even lighter/Doesn’t mean I’m over cause you’re gone

Details in the fabric —- Jason Marz

If it’s a broken part, replace it/If it’s a broken arm, then brace it/If it’s a broken heart, then face it. Hang on/help is on the way/and stay strong/I’m doing everything

We Don’t Cry —- Chris Garneu

And neither do my friends/though some of them pretend/and its easy if you cry/cos you feel bad for yourself

You Haven’t Seen The Last Of Me —- Cher

I was built tough/I’m gonna show you all what i’m made of/I’ve been brought down to my knees/ and I’ve been pushed right past the point of breaking/ but I can take it/ I will be back/ back on my feet/ this is far from over/I am far from over/ you haven’t seen the last of me.

Not Afraid —- Eminem

Everybody/come take my hand/we’ll walk this road together, through the storm/whatever weather, cold or warm/just letting you know that, you are not alone/ holla if you feel like you’ve been down the same road.

The list above is the songs that can be the best description of me. I was born in Shanghai, a big city in China, at the end of 1994. I was a new soul to this world, growing up under parent’s pampered love, and learning different skills to survive. It is hard for me to remember things happened when I was little; Memory is like a 4GB flash drive, and I always have to delete the old things to save the new stuff. At the age fourteenth, I was a typical teenager girl who confused by the adult world, lost in the maze of live, and felt like I was an outsider that looking all the others enjoyed in playing their interesting live shows. Then, my life turning point came. I came to New York in September, 2009, and it was a brand new beginning for me. I hoped to find new friends and to have a different life style, and I believed that everything will heading to a positive direction. However, my freshman year in high school brought a lot of troubles because of the difficulty in language. Mistreated, misplaced, and misunderstood made me missed my home in Shanghai so badly, and I was wondering what I am doing here. Nevertheless, what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger; I thought the best way to get into the society was learning the English. I forced myself to study harder and to speak with the others in English. We all had to study the SAT in our junior year, and the vocabulary was a huge problem for me. Music was always staying with me in the late night, and the lyrics were telling me that everything will be fine as long as I don’t give up. When I think of the past four years in high school, I feel like I’ve gone such a long journey. All the experience I went through, things I learned, and mistakes I made built me today. College life is a new starting point to me, and I have my friends and my family at my back supporting me, but the most important thing is I’m not afraid of it.