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About SHARON LUI

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Sharon’s Meme

MY LIFE IN A MEME (Source: http://www.someecards.com/usercards/viewcard/MjAxMy04ZGM3NmE0MjZlMjlkODRh)

So, as this meme suggests, I am a mighty procrastinator. It is a problem that I deal with on a daily basis. In fact, I am dealing with it right now by putting off an overdue assignment and lots of studying. One reason why I procrastinate is because I have a weak and lazy work ethic. It’s not that I wasn’t disciplined hard enough — it’s that I choose to take the “easy” path. Anything that requires more than minimum effort repels me, which is really bad. Another reason why I do everything so last-minute is because of my deep-rooted mantra, “I still have time.” The last excuse I can probably give pertaining to my procrastination is that I tend to work better under pressure. I end up starting and finishing homework and papers a few hours or even minutes before I’m supposed to hand them in. For exams, I end up only “studying” the day I have to take them. What results from these three things is a very stressed out person getting little-to-no sleep most of the time. During my freshman fall semester, I told myself to break my terrible habit. It worked for about a week, but then I stopped progressing. This hit me slowly at first, because my grades didn’t show much of a difference between staying on top of things and procrastinating. But after two months passed, I realized that the “warning sign” I was waiting for never came, and realized that the damage had already been done. My grades suffered because of my immature and naïve mindset. So now, I’m nearing the end of my first semester (supposedly one of the easiest semesters at college) with sub-par grades that will haunt me for the next four years. Although I was secretly proud of my procrastinating-induced accomplishments in high school, I am now ashamed of my behavior in college. If I continue on this rickety bridge, I will probably fall off and not be able to recover. I have already accepted that my dream of achieving at least a 3.0 GPA might be unattainable at this point.

Crossroads

I love my mother the most in the universe. We argue constantly over trivial things, but in the end, we reconcile because we know we’re greater than our petty arguments. One thing that constantly comes up though, is what I will do for a career. When I hear the words ‘major’, ‘job’, or ‘rest of my life’, I tense up. It’s not like I don’t know what I am interested in. But what’s stopping me from continuing on the path towards my interests is — you guessed it — my mother. Ever since I was a child, she had always wanted me to become a doctor, lawyer, or pharmacist. There was actually a brief time that I considered becoming a doctor, but that only lasted a year. For the most part, I knew I was fascinated with astronomy. However, when I voiced this passion, my mother would tell me that “becoming an astronomer is unrealistic, and that I have to think about a career’s long-term benefits.” I understand that as my mother, she will always worry about me, my future, and my financial stability. She believes that becoming an astronomer will not put me on the smooth, paved road to success. I don’t disagree with that, because I do know that there are very few schools that focus on that. There are probably even fewer esteemed companies out there, compared to the medical and justice systems. So after putting that fantasy aside, I decided to be a good daughter and considered my mother’s next preferred choice: an accountant. Besides hating math, I didn’t really have any excuse to conjure because accountants don’t require excessive time and money devoted to medical or law school. However, I had also developed an interest in psychology due to the Advanced Placement course I was taking. When my mother heard, she also shot the idea down. She would spend hours lecturing me on how her co-workers who chose to pursue psychology ended up not being able to find a job in that field. Or, even worse, how those who did find a psychology-related job, became psychologically distressed or depressed. My mother would contrast this negativity with her other co-workers that “made the right decision” in becoming accountants. They’re happy, financially stable, and know what they’re doing with their pleasant lives. All of my family and friends are telling me to follow MY dream, since my happiness is what matters. As Confucius once said, “Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” I don’t want to disappoint or be at odds with my most cherished person, though. But who am I really doing this for, my mother or myself?

10 Songs That Rep Sharon

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I actually had trouble searching for songs that represented or had significance to me. But I pulled through, after searching through my 1600+ Youtube playlist of songs LOL. I chose to do a song playlist because music has had a major influence on my mood and personality.

So first up, I chose ‘Enigma’ by Veigar Margeirsson. After my first listening of this song, I had been inexplicably and emotionally moved. Never has any piece of music taken me through a fleshed out journey full of experiences and feelings that only pertained to me. I have placed it first on the playlist because it is definitely my favorite song. Next, I chose ‘He’s a Pirate’ by Klaus Badelt. It is a song that I listen to when I’m lacking motivation and determination. Third, I chose ‘No Light, No Light’ by Florence + The Machine because its lyrics vaguely applied to me. It’s about how someone made a mistake and couldn’t keep his/her significant other from slipping away from them. In parallel, I have let many opportunities get away because of my shy personality. I chose ‘Bring Me to Life’ by Evanescence next because I don’t think I’m actually living my life to its fullest. Or, as Nicki Minaj said, “But to live, doesn’t mean you’re alive.” As corny as it sounds, I am waiting for someone to lift me off from the dusty floor and waltz me around my life. Fifth, I chose ‘Angels’ by The xx. It is a somber, yet powerful song that represents the hopeless romantic that I am. Next, I chose ‘Fairy Dance’ by James Newton Howard. It is full of hope, curiosity, and wonder, but it also hints of slight melancholy near the end. Also, ‘fairy’ was the closest term I could link to my love for fantasy. For the next song, I chose ‘King and Lionheart’ by Of Monsters and Men. It represents my fierce devotion to those I truly care about. I am selfish most of the time, but there are certain people I would swim the Pacific for (I don’t know how to swim). I blanked out after this, so I decided to meet the 10-song quota by adding 3 random rave/EDM songs (‘Bad’ by David Guetta & Showtek ft. Vassy, ‘SMASH!’ by Ummet Ozcan, and ‘Hero’ by Pegboard Nerds ft. Elizaveta). EDM (Electronic Dance Music) is currently my favorite genre of music. Sadly, I have not attended a rave yet, but I am planning to in 2015!

Music is what I turn to for comfort that no embrace can compare to. Music is a release for my bottled emotions. It soothes me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, so I probably won’t be denying its magnitude anytime soon. :3

Getting to Know LC09: Sharon

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Hi! My name is Sharon Lui and I was born and raised in Brooklyn, New York. I graduated from Midwood High school in 2014. After getting accepted into several colleges, I gave myself two choices for attending college in the fall: Baruch or Hunter. Since I missed the date for Baruch’s admitted students day, I decided to attend Hunter’s at the very least. After the information session and tour of Hunter, I decided that it was not for me. So I went with Baruch, even though I had not researched or visited it yet. I am reluctantly going to major in Accounting, even though I have other areas of interest in mind. In my free time, or when I procrastinate, I like to eat good food, watch T.V. (especially anime/manga), shop, and sleep.

In all honesty, Baruch is not my dream school. However, I am willing to work towards changing this outlook. Even though it won’t be easy, I hope that by the end of these four years, I will evolve into a better, more mature person than I am now. I hope to excel in my studies in order to obtain a well-paying job, make authentic friends, and become an overall happy person.