Imagine growing up and always compared to your older sibling. Yup, I’ve been through that. “Why aren’t u as smart as your sister??!!” I always wondered when people are going to get tired of that saying. But apparently, it NEVER goes away. Even though my parents said they treat me and my sister equally, it didn’t feel like it. Everything went into her favor and she had the best of everything. I would get the left over or even second handed stuff from her.  I have absolutely no say in anything in my home because I am the “dumber” one.

I started working hard on school work in middle school but I also felt I was missing out because I only went to school, library, and back home. I was missing my friends and suddenly I was losing out on my social life.  Though I tried my hardest, it was not good enough to satisfy my parents and especially my sister. At this time I made a full 180 degrees turn and started to slack off. Having so much pressure on my back to do well took its toll on me. I was sort of depressed but thankfully my friends told me to cheer up and to laugh everything off. I took that advice and suddenly I lost interest in school.

So when something does not fall in my favor or go my way I think, “It is what it is”. Especially when my grades aren’t up to the expectations of my sister, I could really care less.