2011: This is one grand mountain. I hope that one day I can reach what is up there, the thing that lies beyond the clouds. I know that if I find what ever is beyond there, I will be strong enough, strong enough for anything. Based on my performance, I can see that I might have a few kinks to work out, but otherwise this should be a simple trial. What I need to do is not give up, I know that what I am looking for lies on that top, lies beyond the clouds. I must refuse to give up…
2012 : This is something to marvel, a mountain as endless as this, as ever changing as this. Was this the same mountain that I crawled on ever since I was young? Was this the mountain that resembled the same shape that I remember? Years past and I still cannot see the top, what lies beyond the clouds. There is so much that I wanted to experience, so many people I have crossed that I want to meet again, but as a different man. This mountain, this identity is not the one that I want to follow. I want to be different, I want to change again for them…
2013: I changed, I know I have. Yet why can I still not appreciate the path I have chosen for this mountain? I thought that if I had changed, I could be better, I thought that I could find what was up there, beyond the clouds on the mountain of my choice. What was the point of this change if I could not find what exist up there? If I could not find the goal I was looking for? If I was never good enough to reach the top, never good enough to change this mountain, why did I even start? I wanted to change, I wanted to be better, but what was the point….
2014: “One more round”….that was all I could hear. I thought mountain took away my heart, mind, and soul, yet there is still a voice that rings “one more round”. I still can not see the summit, what lies beyond the clouds, but that does not concern me. I learned that what lies beyond the clouds are the things you bring, the values that helped you reach to the top. I learned that this mountain does not bend to the will of anyone. I can choose what I bring, I can choose who I am, but this mountain that I climb only submits to the flow of time. I do not know how long this trial will take in order to reach to the top, but I know I will get there with one more round. One more round, to enter what lies beyond the clouds.
