So, upon getting vaccinated for COVID-19, there was a stress in neogtiation with my mother, who did not want me to get it. She moved away to keep a job without getting the shot. I was upset at my father for trying to avoid getting me the shot in spite of her not physically there. The reason why he eventually let me was because I turned 18 and because of that, I legally don’t need parental consent for everything anymore. He saw that he could use that as an excuse, even though he’s kept it secret this whole time and he’s gotten me to do the same thing. By that I mean, we don’t tell anyone in the family, because of the fear of them “accidentally” telling her (my mom) or saying it online where she can see it. I don’t get it because it would have made no difference if I was still 17, but he thought that somehow, she would get a confirmation email that I got the shots. He even started to think that we (mom and I) shared emails and would think that anything sent to me regarding the shots, would be sent to her, which is ridiculous to think, because I wasn’t and am still not a little kid. So, that wouldn’t make sense even though my mom is fairly protective, bit not nearly to that extreme. Perhaps that teachable moment here is to not let some external force make decisions for you, because I felt like I wasted a lot of time. Sure, it was nice to have a break from 13 consecutive years of school, but I felt guilty, sitting around with no responsibilities for 7 months.

Anyway, I may go against the message I wrote because I of course did depend on my dad to be able to get the vaccination. But, the point was his avoidance to get it and my own avoidance to talk to my mother. I thought that she would somehow force me to move other there if my dad at any point did plan to get me the shots with her knowing about it. I would’ve been very upset actually. I do obviously respect my mom, but if she forced me to go over there, to avoid getting a shot, to me and most people, it would seem really silly. It doesn’t appear that she’s just against this vaccination, but is against all of them. People hate others who think like that, and well, I didn’t think she always thought like that until a certain someone came into her life. By this, I mean her ex-boyfriend, who she got with, after she and my dad divorced. It seems that he believes in many conspiracy theories, and being against vaccines can be considered one of them. So, for a few years, she thought he was informing him, but many people would think that he was brainwashing her, perhaps to even get her to question the earth being round. Just because you can’t explain it, doesn’t mean it isn’t true. In fact, bring against vaccines would stem from not understanding how exposition to a virus wouldn’t harm you.

Reflection: There may have been a change in thoughts prior to and after breaking a sweat (which for me, was just holding a 130-second plank, which isn’t much by the way), was that perhaps after, the tone was rather of anger instead of disappointment, but the “workout” may have not played a role, because I was thinking of writing that anyway. I may have not got to write as much the 2nd time because of a disruption and well, I could also have written more in general if I wasn’t using my phone to do this. The WiFi has been out since yesterday.