Written By: Katelyn Madera
Despite the feelings that have long since passed I still find myself thinking of you The Lady that I serve For whom I would do anything Together since childhood Yet never promised to me Your heart was never meant to be mine For fear of the flames I left the Palace along with the first falling leaves
Five months passed since the Autumn you left It was those dreadful rumors That forced you away Did you notice the sparkle in my eyes Reserved for you and you alone They must have too How disgusted with me you must’ve been For you to have gone without saying good-bye I wonder how you will react to the news Soon reaching the East Maybe this will bring you back to me
Had your Father honoured your wish To never marry As promised Diana of hers Then I would survive Even if I were not by your side But with your letter came an invitation To a Ball held in your Honour You are of marriageable age, as am I Now we must meet the eligible men of high stature To bring honour to our houses
The very Autumn breeze that stole you Once again returned you to me Your coffee hair longer now Pale skin now sun-kissed Constellations adorning your cheeks Your eyes darker than onyx Held a certain sorrow Matching my own
How I missed your cherry locks And your sapphire gaze Your complexion of honey Dusted pink when your eyes Locked with mine A silent understanding I must keep you at arms length Though all I want is your embrace
Despite all our efforts The rumors are reborn Like a phoenix from the flame I must choose my husband soon Both our reputations are at stake The noblemen call upon me daily Speaking of all their successes They have so much to offer my Father Perfect manners, chivalric indeed Through their facades of nobility I see Nothing more than animals in heat I wish you would steal me away
Perhaps it was our Mothers’ desires To be sisters by law That made my heart race for you Her stomach a round moon Picked the name Henry prematurely When I was born Instead, I was called Helen A disappointment since birth Yet, I pray to Venus to grant Helen the strength Henry would have had
I heard you return to the East Leaving again, no goodbye How can I fault you? I wish to see you Even one last time My selfish heart Aching for you Alone