“Everything I Wanted” – Billie Eilish
- 0:03- The Music Video starts off with a message reading, “finneas is my brother and my best friend. no matter the circumstance, we always have and always will be there for each other”, on a green background.
- 0:12- The video cuts to a moving car which appears to be driving on an elevated highway. In the background you can see it is night time and there appears to be a city landscape with lit skyscrapers , perhaps taking place New York or another city. It is hard to tell because the background is out of focus.
- 0:26- The two people in the car appear to be Billie in the drivers seat and her brother Finneas passenger side. It is hard to tell because the windows appear to be tinted and this combined with the night scenery and gives it more ambiguity.
- 0:41- We finally see Billie’s face and she appears to be driving with her brother Finneas passenger side. Billie has this almost tired/serious look on her face as well as her brother.
- 0:49- Billie drives into a tunnel which gets rid of the city landscape scenery for the time being.
- 0:53- Billie drives out of the tunnel and there appears to be a completely new scenery in the background. Instead of a city landscape, there is a huge ocean with a couple of small mountains in the background. If you take a closer look, the golden state bridge is also in the background as well, but that is also hard to distinguish as it is still night time and the background is still out of focus.
- 0:56- Billie once again drives into another tunnel and this also gets rid of the landscape scenery for the time being.
- 0:59- We once again see Billie’s face, but she appears to look even more tired and more sad with her brother maintaining that same serious look.
- 1:09- We start to see the exit of the tunnel and there appears to be a new another new scenery. This time it appears to be a California dessert. You can tell because of the cactuses and dry, arid flora.
- 1:14- The background still takes place in the dry, California dessert but this time we see a sunset overlooking the mountain scape and highway.
- 1:24- We can now see the car has driven onto the sand of a beach
- 1:26- Finneas looks out the window and looks concerned almost
- 1:28- Billie just keeps looking straight ahead as she continues to drive
- 1:38- They both look straight ahead as the car continues to drive straightforward
- 1:53- We see Billies POV in the drivers seat and it is just pure ocean.
- 1:57- The car appears to be heading to the ocean
- 2:01- Billies foot is seen stomping on the accelerator pedal of the car
- 2:09- The car appears to be sinking slowly into the ocean
- 2:12- We see from the inside that the water level arises from the outside, slowly covering up the window view.
- 2:16- The car is now fully submerged underwater
- 2:24- We see the car is getting further and further away from the surface
- 2:28- It is completely dark in the ocean, with only the bright headlights of the car illuminating the pitch blackness.
- 2:34- Billie touches the window but with a calm demeanor
- 2:40- They are both just sitting there calmly, with surprisingly no water entering the car
- 2:57- Finneas extends his hand out to Billie who is sitting right next to him and they interlock fingers and hold hands
- 3:00- They finally look at each other in the face, but Billie’s sorrowful look turns into a smile
- 3:08- They both look out their windows and see that the surface of the ocean is far above them, with the car gradually sinking further down
- 3:22- Billie looks down at her foot and notices water is starting to pour in from underneath the car
- 3:26- They both look at each other calmly and look back straight ahead
- 3:37- The headlights of the car turn off
- 3:38- The water has covered her whole foot and they grasp onto each others hands even tighter
- 3:50- The camera slowly pans out of the drivers seat window with Billie still looking calm and the scenery all pitch black, with the only barely recognizable figure being Billie’s face
- 4:27- The music stops as the video comes to an end, but there is another 20 seconds left of the video where it is just a black screen.
I found out about the video and the song when I went to get a haircut in the middle of February. I remember I walked in to the barbershop and took a seat down to wait, and they had this big TV screen which usually plays music videos. This one time though they were playing this particular song and video and I’ve never heard it before prior to the haircut. As I was looking at and listening to the video I felt something inside of me. I don’t know if it was sorrow, pain, or even happiness but I felt something. I’ve never seen or heard anything that evoked that feeling that was I was feeling. Whatever it was, I enjoyed it and took another listen at home and it evoked the same feelings. It has grown to be one of my favorite songs and it introduced me to more of Billie’s work. Even now when I watched it again, I viewed in awe and developed even more appreciation for the song and video.
The video’s genre is Pop or Alternative Pop. The intended audience is meant to be teenagers and anyone who is going through something. The social context is that she is a growing pop star and she came to a realization with herself throughout one of her dreams, or as she referred to it as a nightmare. The purpose of the video is to show that as she grows more famous, she has to be more careful with the people she surrounds herself with because as she described in her dream: she got everything she wanted, she killed herself by jumping off the golden state bridge, she thought people would care but they didn’t and they didn’t even shed a tear, rather called her weak. In the chorus of the song, her brother is reassuring her that everything is ok and as long as she has him, no one can hurt her. And he reassures her of her true value. As mentioned in the beginning of the video, her brother is everything to her, and no matter what happens they’ll always stick together side by side. The video is saying fame isn’t everything and to cherish your family as they’ll always be there for you no matter what. P.S. I recommend listening with headphones or a good speaker.
Looking back at all the blog posts that we have done throughout the semester, I’d have to say that this is my favorite one because it was unconventional, in my opinion, from any type of english assignment that I have ever gotten throughout my years of schoolwork. I also like how it kind of expressed other people’s music taste and we were able to see what they were into. I like how this blog post also made me dive deeper into a song/music video and analyze it in a way that I never did before. This blog post gave everyone a voice to air out their opinions and all the songs/music videos were diverse and different. Overall, I can’t believe this semester has gone by this quick and I am going to certainly miss this English class because it became one of my favorites and the assignments/blogposts were one of the few things that I looked forward to doing in terms of school work.
I also chose this blog post because it was different from other assignment I’ve done for school. It helps us know a little more about each other and explore new music while still completing work for the class.
I agree with the theme in the song. It is true that as we start to gain success we have to stay humble and remember who and what got us where we are and try not to let others take advantage of us. I am also confident in saying that I would much rather do a blog post where I read/watch something interesting and give my own thoughts as well as expand on it instead of having tedious textbook-like assignments every week. True learning is being able to perceive ideas in your own unique way and expand upon them not having to memorize terms and definitions.
I agree that this assignment was really unconventional. It’s alot different than just reading and writing. Instead we try to find meaning in the music we listen to instead of just jamming to it. It definitely changed how I listen to music because this assignment made me go back to my playlist and find the meaning to other songs that I listen to.