I remember when I first got into Baruch. Wow this is going to be great.
I met a lot of people I’m glad I met.
I made friends who I think will continue staying my friends for a long time.
I loved most of my professors.
Honestly, I’m grateful for my time here thus far.

And yet, I can’t help but want to face plant on the wall sometimes. Or, I guess ram myself on to a wooden wall in the shape of a star (which actually looks pretty cool).

The stress when it comes to finals when I know I haven’t paid attention in that lecture class.
Yes, I’m talking about you Moral Ethics (#moralproblems).
Some professors are just so ignorant to individual cultures (while talking about Racial Theory).

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“So how many of you are scarred for life after hearing that?”

Come on, I thought college was all about being accepting and not judging other people for their interests.

But here I was again, in front of a room, where the teacher is scrutinizing me about something I love to do, and asking others to openly judge me (just saying! It hurts).

I mean sure, I’m not like those girls who wear tight clothes and go to parties. I don’t wear makeup and I choose to wear my glasses over my contacts. How plain and boring, I know.

That’s only when it comes to school. Over the years, I’ve realized it was better to fit in than stick out in academic areas.

Enter: Comic-Con.

It’s like a safe haven for me -nobody judges me when I’m there. People praise me for my intricate details on my costumes and the textures of my wigs. Oh yeah, cosplaying is a big deal for me.

Everyone is so friendly and nobody judges you if you don’t wear a costume. At the same time, you’ll receive praise if you do try.

What I’m trying to get at here is that college is no different than high school. Everyone’s judgmental. Everyone sees that weird girl who likes to dress up and tags her as “one of those.”

Well, I guess I’m going back to being random Asian girl #2 again. But when I go to my photoshoot, I’ll be – eh you don’t need to know.

http://grooveshark.com/playlist/What+I+Had+To+Do+For+Freshmen+Seminar/101129597

I honestly did not have an order when picking out the songs for this playlist (so it’s in alphabetical order)

1.  What is Love – Haddaway: I picked this song because it reminded me of one of my best friends, Earvin, throughout middle school and high school. Sadly, he moved to Florida. Every time I saw him, he would play this song to “get the party started.”

2. Warriors – Imagine Dragons: This is my current song. Am I supposed to relate to this? I wasn’t part of the warriors who built this town. But I think it’s very powerful. Most Imagine Dragons songs are.

3. This Love – Maroon 5: This was my favorite songs as a kid (and is still one of my favorites). Love is something I’ll never truly have a grasp on. Probably nobody will.

4. Simple & Clean (Music box Version): Kingdom Hearts. Another big part of my childhood. I’ve never been too good at the game. The soundtrack, however, is amazing. The music box version of Utada Hikaru’s Simple and Clean have always gotten me through the night if I couldn’t sleep.

5. Sexy Can I (ft. Yung Berg) – Ray J: This song is so out of place. This reminds me of my girl best friend Amy. She goes to Stony Brook now. We were the derpiest pair of kids to enter Brooklyn Tech. This song reminds me of her because it’s one of our guilty pleasure songs (or a song we’d be embarrassed to admit we like). She helped my figure out who I was in high school and built my confidence like crazy. I love this girl, or boy (sometimes she cross dresses under the name Andy).

6.  Lucky (ft. Colbie Caillat) – Jason Mraz: lucky to be in love with my best friend    Sometimes. I guess I’m still in love with my best friend? I should probably do something about that. It’s not the same guy was the one in song 1, promise.

7. I’ll Be There – Jackson 5: Oh goodness. This song is the epitome of my friend Jing. She’s always been there, since middle school as well. Even though there were times when we fought, when we saw each other again, we were nothing but friendly and accepting!

8.  Float On – Modest Mouse: This is apparently, my song. According to all of my friends, when they have to think of a song for me, they think of Float On. I guess it’s because I’m pretty optimistic. Or at least, I try to think on the bright side. It really hurt, when my friend left he wrote in my yearbook: we’ll all float on okay.

9. Flaws – Bastille: This really reminds me of my number one best friend Christian. He is means so much to me. He’s like the second pea in my pod, except we’re pretty derpy together. I guess two mangoes trying to fit in a pod??? We have a lot of differences and flaws, but without him I guess I wouldn’t be myself.

10. Colors of the Wind – (on the playlist it says Disney): Ha, a Disney song. This reminds me of my really close friend Patteera. She’s my bubble buddy (we established this over the summer). She’s like the second half of my brain. In one of the assignments, I wrote that a true friend is someone who will finish your lyrics. She finishes my lyrics whenever I start saying them out of nowhere, this song just happens to be our favorite. “You may think I’m an ignorant savage…”

That’s about it! I guess I’m pretty friend – oriented. I don’t think thats such a bad thing

~Carolyn Quach

“I’m bad, and that’s good. I will never be good, and that’s not bad. There’s no one I’d rather be then me.” 

you gotta love Wreck- It- Ralph.