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Throughout  high school, all my teachers spoke about how hard and how much more work college would have, so I had a sense of what college would be like. My first semester at Baruch has shown me that college isn’t really all that they said it was going to be. I find myself with more time than I did in high school and less work. I also came from a small school of less than 500 students, but the change from a small school to a large school doesn’t really affect me all that much. The thing that probably has affected me the most has been the change in clothing. I’ve worn uniform for most of my life, so coming to a school where I wear regular clothes is a little uncomfortable, but I got over it. The reason I chose the image above is because I really have no good or bad opinion about school. Everything has gone okay, but I think it’ll get better as time progresses.

The summer of 2011 was pretty boring for me, so when I started my senior year in September I was really glad. It was a new year where I was hopefully going to take some classes I like, my friends are there and my skin had cleared a significant amount of acne off my face. Things were looking up as they usually do for me at the beginning of the year. My grades showed I was in a good mood since they were all above 75’s. But as always I begin to lose my excitement for the year and fall into a slump. In this particular year, I felt that my slump was deeper than usual. I stopped doing my work because I didn’t feel like it and it began piling up. Usually when this happens I try to get my act together, but I just didn’t care. With college applications and research papers due, I couldn’t afford falling behind, yet I did. I had barely managed to submit my applications on time and missed most of my deadlines on the papers I had in English class. It became so severe that I was in danger of graduating high school. When my school’s guidance counselor contacted my mom, my mom wasn’t happy. In the email, the counselor wrote that I was in danger of graduating an that she and other teachers thought I might have been depressed. In a way this made sense because the way I was losing my acne was by taking these pills that were prescribed to me. They’re kind of a last resort for doctors because they can cause many side effects. My mom completely ignored the “depressed” part because she doesn’t believe that I can have depression and began insulting me. I don’t like when my mom insults me, but I respect the way she insults me because I go on Youtube and the insults I see on the comment section aren’t usually as elaborate as hers. The worst thing she said to me that night was “You’re still 17. If your not going to study and go to school, you tell me now cause I’ll sign you up to the army. There is no way I’m going to be responsible for letting a parasite like you into society.” With my brother, who is about 6 years older than me, still trying to finish community college, my parents put more pressure on me because it’s like they’ve given up on him and if you’re not going to go to school you might as well join the army. After that day I was given about a week to finish most of the papers I had been assigned during the year. Eventually I did on my papers, graduated and here I am. Writing this monologue in college.

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1. HIV Song By Ween: I chose this song because it only has two lyrics and doesn’t say much. I don’t say much.

2. Yonkers By Tyler The Creator: I saw in an interview that Tyler wrote the song so that every pair of lines contradict each other. I tend to contradict myself in a lot of things in every day situations, leaving me with no opinion.

3. Make Peace and Be Free By Perfect Confusion: The song describes my average day. I wake up and go do what I have to do. Not much else goes on.

4. Live For the Day By Perfect Confusion: This song describes the way I wish I lived my life. Doing more vibrant things would probably give me more of a personality.

5. Thrift Shop By Macklemore feat. Wanz: I find this song really funny. My friend described him as “the definition of swag” and stuff that includes swag is just funny to me. It  shows my sense of humor.

6. Flow By Cage the Elephant: The song says “Looking out a window, wonder how it came to be”. Sometimes I wonder about how things are made and spend time on wikipedia trying to figure it out.

7. Eyes Closed By The Narrative: This song is talking about a daydream someone is having. I spend a lot of time in class and out daydreaming.

8. In One Ear By Cage the Elephant: This song is about not caring about what people think about the things you do and doing them because you like to. I like to think I do this, but I’m not sure.

9. Four Chords By The Classic Crime: I want to do something with my life. Leave something behind in the world before I die, so at least one person remembers I existed.

10. Loser By Beck: This is just the type of music I like. It has a unique sound and it’s catchy to me. That is all.