Author Archives: Jason Phan

After 4 years of high school, I have become extremely used to waiting until the last day to do all my work. I was able to do this because all my teachers would remind the class the day before an assignment is due. Now that college has started, procrastination isn’t going to work anymore. With the use of a syllabus, it’s not the professor’s responsibility anymore to remind students to do their work. After my first few weeks of college, I realized that I kept on missing homework assignments because I forgot that I even had homework for the class. Since I have to keep track of so many assignments, I need a calendar/planner to keep up with what I have to do. My calendar is constantly on my mind because I’m always stressing about what kind of work I have to be worried about next. Without my calendar, it wouldn’t be possible for me to remember all my assignments and due dates. It is now a big part of my education. My first impression on Baruch is that I have to do everything on my own from now on. No one is going to be guiding me through all my classes and make sure I’m passing my classes.

My greatest fear is the unknown. The way that I think of it, the future is so terrifying. I guess it’s because I don’t know what’ll end up happening to me. It’s like, I could end up a failure. Someone without a family. Maybe I won’t even have the chance to become an adult because I died or something. What if all the work I’ve done throughout my life goes to waste? The more that I think about it, the more negative I get.

This also includes the ocean and the dark. I’m only scared of the dark because I’ve always been pranked by my brother and father jumping out from the dark and scaring me. When I’m confronted with the dark, I can’t help but think “who could be in there waiting for me?” And the ocean is a different story. I’ve always been scared of ocean predators such as sharks or eels. When I’m out swimming in the ocean, I hate the fact that I can’t see anything in the water. It’s even worse when I go underwater. I can’t see OR hear anything! I always get paranoid and think that there’s something that’s going to bite me. The unknown has become my worst nightmare.

http://www.mixpod.com/playlist/89480686
Click on the “show playlist” arrow/button to see my list of 10 songs.

1. 2Pac-Never Had A Friend Like Me
This song shows how i can be a great friend. “Down with you to the very end, cause you ain’t never had a friend like me.” All of my close friends know that I’ll always be there for them no matter what.
2. Mos Def-Travellin’ Man
“Whether things are good or bad, it’s just the memories.” One goal in my life is to live it to the fullest and make the greatest memories possible. Precious moments are what I cherish most.
3. A Tribe Called Quest-Stressed Out
“I really know how it feels to be stressed out, stressed out. We’re gonna make this thing work out eventually.” All my life I’ve been stressed but I know that it’s all for my own good. Eventually things will fall into place and my life will be stress-free.
4. 2Pac-Unconditional Love
“Whether you wrong or you right, I’ma still love you, still feel you, still there for you. No matter what, you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love.” I know that there will always be people encouraging and supporting me along the way. Unconditional love is a necessity in my life.
5. WuTang Clan-CREAM
CREAM is an acronym for “cash rules everything around me.” This is an important saying in my life because money is a main factor in everybody’s life. It’s the reason I try so hard to succeed. Money is always on my mind when i make big decisions. It’s the reason why I chose go into business.
6. Nas-I Can
“You can be anything in the world, in God we trust. An architect, doctor, maybe an actress. But nothing comes easy it takes much practice.” If I doubt myself I remember that I can be whatever I put my mind to.
7. Twista-Hope
“So when right go wrong, just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!! Let’s hope!” I always remind myself that no matter what happens, life will still go on and I just have to hope for the best.
8. Bob Marley-One Love
One dream that I have is that there would be peace on earth. I know that it’s quite impossible to achieve but “Let’s get together and feel all right.”
9. 2Pac-Me Against The World
There’s so much competition nowadays to become successful and it feels as if it’s only me against everybody else. I accept that and I keep my head up and handle it.
10. Kid Cudi-Pursuit Of Happiness
I think everybody can agree that the main goal in life is to find true happiness. “I’m on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold. I’ll be fine once I get it, I’ll be good.”