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this describes school for me for the past 3 months pretty much. i hate waking up extra early cause it takes an hour to get to school. i hate watching the bus pass by me when i walk to the bus stop. then i see 5 more pass me cause they’re all full. i hate when the bus is slow af and takes 30 minutes to get to the train station when i can just walk there myself. then takin the freakin train with stinky people who cant move the f in when the doors are tryna close. i hate dumb people. i hate people who walk slow af when im tryna get to somewhere so i wont be late which i always end up being. i hate how classes are so freakin long like wtf??????????????? but the people in my class are smart. 95% of them… some just make me go wtf?? too many smokers outside. never enough fuckin seats for me to sit in. i hate baruch. cant even get a cool campus. even fuckin queens community college got a campus. but i guess its understandable cause it is the city. but baruch is still ugly af. the freshman seminar class is dumb af too. like why the fuck yall gonna make me take time out on a day i dont have your dumb ass class. yeah i hope one of yall read this. stupid as f. how the hell yall gonna tell us to go somewhere on a thurs when we dont even got your goddamn class. if it was a tuesday, ok no problem, but yall are such assholes making us take time out to go to some shit museum or “voices”. aint nobody wanna go to that nonsense. like fuckin really?????????????????????????????? are you shittin me?????????? this a “blog” post so i can tell how i feel right? or yall gonna goddamn fail me now for being real? ridiculous.

Why are we here? What are we striving for? What is the world moving towards? Why the hell are children voting? Why do people do bad things? And why do the good have to suffer? What’s my dream? What do I want? What do they want? Why don’t I know anything? Why can’t we just learn stuff without being tested? Doesn’t that make things more fun?

Aren’t the birds supposed to be migrating? Why hasn’t my back healed yet? Is the world really gonna end? Who thought of the layout of the subway? How many people did it take to make it? How many years?  Why is life so dull?

Why is it when you’re happy, time goes quickly? And when you’re bored, why does time go so slowly? Is time real? Is any of this real? What if this is just one big game? How do we win?

When you close your eyes and look at the world, what do you see?

Where are you now…under this sky that we share?

http://grooveshark.com/playlist/FRO+DTG/77206161

My playlist has a variety of songs. To start off, I am a Christian. Born and raised in a Christian family. So that’s where the Christian songs come in. I believe in my Father and that he is my shepherd and will guide me in my life.

I’ve also grown up listening to 50 cent. I really like his song Hate it or Love it. It just speaks to me. About the underdogs. How they should be noticed. It’s those who are unnoticed who are the most interesting. Although I’m unnoticed I’m not interesting. The irony.

Other songs such as Chariot, Something to Hope For, and Forgive me is because I’ve lost my way a little. I’ve strayed from my path. I’ve become someone I never wanted to become. I want to fix the things I have done. Those I have wronged. I hurt the person I care most about. I screwed up. I want to fix what I’ve done, but it’s hard. Not knowing what to do. Or where to start.

Melodies of Life is because of the saddest I had ever got because of someone. I was in the dark completely and was blind. I really lost all hope. But someone saved me, the one I care about most now. The one I hurt terribly.

Soldier and Light up the Sky is probably because I just want to protect the people I love. I always wanted to be a knight since I was young. I just really want to save people. Be a guardian. But I failed in doing so too. I’ve failed a lot in my life. How sad…

Chasing Cars is to tell that I’m not a person who needs extravagant things in life. I don’t need anything fancy. Of course it is nice to have things like that, but I generally don’t care too much. I just want to live a simple life with the ones I love. Protecting those I care about. I don’t need too much out of life. I just like things simple. Plain. Guess that’s why I’m such a boring person. Oh well.

Of course just 10 songs can’t describe me. Everyone is much more complex than just a few words or a few songs, or a few pictures. Everyone has their depth. Deeper than the ocean. It’s too hard to describe people. Too hard to describe oneself. I’m sure everyone is still unsure about themselves. Who they are. Their significance. Humans, are just too complicated. Too beautiful. Too dangerous.