https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1hyCsJFa8E

After sifting through other monologues, my eyes landed on this particular monologue, titled ‘VET STORY’ by Seema Sueko, acted out by Tobias Segal. All of the monologues are equally impressive in terms of portrayal and often gives a twist at your heart strings and your brain, making you apply the same questions to yourself. Although some situations may be more extreme than the events that happen in majority of our lives, there still exists some parallels when you dilute the literal events and find the morals or lesson learned.

I suppose the reason why this monologue speaks to me the most is because I feel that I am also reasonably self-aware. It is a bittersweet feeling, because although I am grateful for being able to understand my flaws and what I should or shouldn’t have done, it also evokes a strong sense of self-loathing and paranoia. 

In the case of Sueko’s monologue, there is this constant stab at himself, and the tool or weapon he uses is the question ‘why?’ Why did they do those things? He is painfully aware that with each bullet he uses to take someone else’s life, there is a string of relatives, a string of loved ones holding that person’s hand- someone who will miss them, someone who will mourn for their death. And although Sueko’s experience may be more drastic, there still exists parallels from our lives to theirs. He has no choice but to continue self-reflecting, keeping himself in check of what and why he did this or that; perhaps for the sake of his own sanity and for those that have passed from the pull of his trigger.