I remember when I was younger I used to hate traveling, every time my mom went on vacation, I would try my hardest to argue my way out of it. I hated it, no matter where I went I would have to rely on my mom to take me everywhere. I hated it because she never wanted to go where I wanted to go, I would want to go to a pool, she would want to go to Home Goods, and trust me with her, there was no compromise. To me a vacation was not suppose to be spent figuring out ways to decorate my home, it is suppose to be a time to get away from home and experience of period of fun. Its only now that I enjoy my vacations and I guess the reason for this is that I can now travel alone, and experience what I am in the mood for.

My senior year in high school, I was sub director to a community service group. I was set in charge of 40 kids on a one-night camping trips. I felt empowered and in control. When I was a kid in preschool, a classmate ran up to me and pulled down my pants. He claimed that they were his and that I had stolen them. The school enforced a dress code and those were the pants of the uniform. I was completely embarrassed. This all happened in Dominican Republic. I was born there and lived there till the age of 6. My house was very close to the school and I was an uncontrollable crybaby. When this kid pulls my pants down, I do nothing but start screaming in tears. All the kids in our class were laughing  at me and it was honestly terribly embarrassing.

The time(s) I got embarrassed:

I’ve always hated it when people commented on the way I spoke Chinese. It’s because of their comments that I’ve grown to be embarrassed of using the language. Sometimes I would even feel ashamed because I couldn’t speak the language properly. My poor use of Chinese is due to the fact that I speak a mix of English with a southern Chinese dialect. My family has gotten used to the way I talk but others haven’t. When I talk in Chinese in public, people usually can’t understand me and sometimes laugh at me and call me “white-washed”. The term is said in Chinese but I’ve grown familiar enough with it to understand the meaning. Usually I get angry and think, “Well. I was born in New York. I can’t help but become influenced by the environment!” But I do understand that I should be more familiar with the language. Honestly, I can’t even communicate with my father much because of the language barrier and I was fortunate enough that my mother knew English. When I had to work with citizenship test takers I couldn’t communicate with them well but they still relied on me. I also  found it somewhat amusing that many of the Chinese elders thought I was a genius just because I spoke English fluently.

So here is my monologue I guess…

I consider myself to be a happy person. Nothing really bothers me and I’m lucky I’m not living through many hardships. The important people in my life that make me happy are my family , friends, and my boyfriend. Things like painting, drawing, dancing, and listening to music relaxes me and puts me in a great mood. I guess I feel content with my life…

But sometimes when I’m sitting at home doing nothing I wonder what if my life was different. What if I had the chance to explore new places? What if I had the opportunity to travel to different countries, to explore the deepest of woods and the darkest of caves? What if right now going to college is not what I really want to be doing? Maybe I’ve always dreamed of a more exciting life. But I suppose that to be able to live a life full of adventure and excitement I’d have to take more risks than I am willing. I don’t believe I can handle living without stability. If I dropped everything to explore the world I would probably end up living in a box and stuck in one place forever. So maybe college is the first step to these fantasies coming true? I guess right now I’m not really content. I’m living life one day at a time following the crowd. But I guess thats all I can do. Without this education I wont be able to get a job and support whatever fantasies I may dream up now and in the future.

ugh I don’t know how my monologue ended up like this haha. oh wells. here’s a picture of myself.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :]

This Blog is based off of the freewrite I wrote I dont remember when….  I Identify myself by my first name John.  But some people and some of my past teammates know me as Bones.  Bones used to be my dads nickname back in college and now I took it over.  We get that name from my last name Bohnenblusch this way people dont say my long ass last name they say bones.  Also because thats all I am skin and BONES.  Some roles that I play in, would be a leader and a role model.  Im a leader because I was chosen to be the captain of my high school and travel volleyball teams.  Im a role model to younger kids that are persuing an interest in the sport that I love volleyball.  Every kid that I have helped I know I gave 100% of what I know to help the little kids out.  The most important things to me would be my Dad, Mom, Grandma, Sister And my Girlfriend because with out them I wouldnt be writing this blog post in Baruch College today.  Where Do I live?  I live in Manorville New York which is on the East side of Long Island it is approx. 10 to 15 mins away from Riverhead or an hour away from Montauk.

My biggest accomplishment would be making the Heroes and Cool Kids program at my high school. This is a prestigious program where I would visit middle school kids, who think of me as a role model, and talk to them about drugs, sex, alcohol, and their future. Although this might never show up on my resume, or even have any effect on me getting a job or such, I still think this was a huge deal for me because Drugs, Sex, and alcohol are huge problems of today’s generation. And the best thing we can do it talk to the younger generation and tell them how important it is to know the facts and hopefully help them keep them away from such things. Also I loved to talk about their future, and how they’re the future of tomorrow. They need to understand that they are the change the world needs. I love making a difference in kids life and it feels good to know that when these kids grow up – they’ll remember me and do the right thing.

For me my biggest accomplishment has to be getting accepted into Baruch College after getting rejected twice. I knew that it was up to me to make this happen and decided i could get accepted so thats when i befriended the president of the school and asked for his consideration and a month later i was accepted. i have many goals and ways of seeing myself in the near future so in four years i want to be a successful investment banker and also have multiple assets in real estate. having the opportunity to work right out of graduating would be a great boost for my plans and goals. I love to give back to the community and lend a hand whenever there is a chance thats why almost every saturday i go to my church and make baskets of dietary essential foods which can be a great help for those in need. In ten years from today i see myself as one of the heads in an investment back also having my own firm and almost finished my law degree as well. I also want to establish charities and maintain true to myself and my origin never change.