I’m often referred to as Jeffrey Leung. I am two sides of the same coin. I have good friends, but I have no good friends. I am aware of what is around me, but not what is close to me. I am aloof, but usually with company. I know of other’s secrets, but others know none of mine. I offer one hand, but arm the other. I know others, but others know naught of me. I am a perfectionist, but also a procrastinator. I am a leader, but I am also a follower. I walk with the weight of the world on my shoulders, but I sit without a care in the world. I function in reality, but think paradoxically. I am cynical, but hope for otherwise. I am shallow, but also deep.
I will ride the winds as they come forth and hope the experience shapes my existence, for I am incomplete.
My concerns are few, but I can say the top three pertaining to my freshman year are:
1. Trying to get employed and, once I do, balancing it with my education. I’ve never been employed and I want to start working to ease the efforts that my family gives to keep me in Baruch. I don’t want to always rely on them; rather I want them to rely on me at some point, so I can repay them for my upbringing.
2. Failing tests or midterms is something that weighs heavily on me. I have a mentality of never studying to promote my memorization skills, but that can only get me so far. Studying has been a vague concept for me, since my understanding of it was always warped. I never enjoyed reading textbooks; something about the formalized text promotes an extremely dull mood that causes me to procrastinate. I never applied what I learned because often I never found use for them in the real world.
3. Writing papers is something I, among others, always tend to do at the last possible second. Personally, I think writing while stressed brings out a higher quality in my work compared to writing it beforehand.
To me, Baruch and Brooklyn Tech share many qualities together: population, crowdedness, the air of difficulty, and so on. However, the flexibility of scheduling will definitely work to my benefit. With my commute time halved compared to high school, in addition to a later starting time; I can afford to get the sleep I’ve always wanted. There are some interesting clubs and organizations, but I’m interested in forging my own. I’ve always hated my decision to go to Brooklyn Tech, but I doubt I’ll have a similar feeling for Baruch. To me, high school was a four year barefoot walk over broken glass. But it was rewarding to arrive at the prestigious institute that is Baruch College.
I doubt I’ll change much, save for losing (or gaining) some weight. I’m quick to adapt, but slow to change.
