Who do I think I am? I think my name is Mordakhay Kholdarov. I think that I’m a student, brother, son, cousin, friend, stranger, and pretty much everything else with respect to other people. But who am I with respect to myself? Well…I am the center of the universe, the epitome of a tall, dark, and handsome fellow, with less stress on the dark and more on the handsome. Who I am to me is a question that calls for an extremely subjective answer, meaning that it is hard to find my true personality when looking for it through my own self loving perspective. I got it! I am a body of flesh and blood, whose sole purpose in life is to live it, in a manner that is at the detriment of another, hence the notion of me being a self loving individual. That’s way too philosophical and boring. What I’m trying to convey in the least in-depth philosophical way is the fact that I am the making of my surrounding environment; I am who my environment has and will make of me. The question now is who will I become as a result of being influenced (whether positively or negatively) by my new environment-Baruch College.
I am concerned about my freshmen year at Baruch College, not only because of how it will change who I am, but because I’m scared out of my pants every time my professors announce a test coming up in the immediate future. I DON’T LIKE TAKING TESTS. I get nervous and am prone to messing up so bad, that I regret setting my alarm the night before the test. But most importantly, I am concerned about having gone to college without finding a decent job after, for reasons that are obvious. I miss high school. The other day, I actually visited my school and found it extremely easy to climb up the stairs and not only that, I found that my teachers still remembered me three months after summer break, unlike the teachers here who will forget you five minutes after class is over and of course you can’t blame them, you have to blame the school population. However, regardless of how different Baruch is from the previous school I attended, I am eager to spend this year in college in a way that will shape me as the responsible tall, dark, and handsome fellow that I am supposed to be (according to society of course). Lastly, I hope everyone gets out of Baruch what they need to strive as a human being in life both personally and professionally!
