El modesto misterio

Karla, your husband Jilmar is dead. His body was found at San Fernando ranch, next to your younger brother, your brother in law as well, the three of them assassinated, three out of the seventy two dead. How many more died with them? Your life broken into pieces, you should have died also, although i hope you wouldn’t have died, not forever, because you’re children need you,and life, broken into pieces, is still life. You are somewhere in California with your children. You might hide your pain int he same way that you hide perhaps without documentation, and with more reasons than that to not grab attention over your family. Isn’t it strange to think that Jilmar in California, and probably you as well had and still have way more to fear than the agents of ICE and the United States authorities than what the Mexican authorities that held Jilmar can fear? Finally, what are “Los Zetas?” The night falls, the desert full, the universe full, and there are only Zetas and ICE in all the horizon. The Zetas and ICE are simply the most disposed weapons of the man of darkness.
Fortunately Jilmar’s brothers are with you. It looks as if Jilmar was a chef in a successful restaurant in California,I don’t know what your brothers do, what you do, and perhaps it is better to remain in silence and keep it a secret. Perhaps in California it went well for you guys? Jilmar must have told Lizardo and Hermelindo something quite promising, so that they can take on that dangerous trip to California with him, and with barely two hundred and fifty dollars to share between the three of them. There was the forty two inch flatscreen television in Jilmar’s fathers home in Agua Caliente, a gift from his kids residing in the U.S, the outcome of his work. Much isn’t needed so that California can look more promising than Guatemala. But who wouldn’t be happy hiring Jilmar? Jilmar a handsome guy, with muscular biceps, and a smile that would easily make anyone return it. He crossed frontiers propelled by love. First of all, its been five years after you left to California before him, when you were sixteen and were pregnant Jilmar went for you, and hew as arrested. He spent one month in jail, and he achieved his goal in the next intent. In May he decided to return to Guatemala to see his parents. Because he wanted to see us alive,not dead, and his father. Only a pure and courageous heart makes such a trip for such reason. His father said he returned very different and very loving, which meant that he had not been like that before, Karla, if not until he went with you to California. When you guys were practically children. Now you wait for sleep, how you waited for Jilmar’s hugs before, to be able to sleep, because only in dreams you get to see him, he and your younger brothers. Even nightmares are welcome, because at least Jilmar was alive there, and the terror isn’t worse than what you usually feel when you’re awake. What advice can I give you? I who has also lost the beloved wife. Let people be giving with you, including when at first it seems to make no difference. It will be a long, long trip. Take your love with you from now to the future in a manner that will help your kids grow, and will help yourself. Look for beauty anywhere you can find it, think that this is the way in which he can give you a small sense of relief, just like when a father takes an infant from the tired arms of his wife.