I really don’t know how to describe myself. I act funny, random, and silly in class but in reality that isn’t me at all. I’ve been placed in a very competetive setting all my life with stress and conflict all around me, so i just got used to trying to lighten the mood when things get tough. Nowadays, I try and crack jokes when i’m bored or tired but i’m actually a very serious person with dreams I do wish to fulfill while at baruch.
My top 3 concerns with baruch are that if its truly the school I was meant to go to. I had the grades to go to out of state colleges, but I chose to stay here because I guess i’m just not mature enough to leave all of my connections behind. There are those that are way too dear to me to just leave in new york while i go to a fancy suny and possibly get the same education i would get back at home. Another concern I have now is how I will be able to pass my pre-calculus course. It seems like there are professors here at this school that are keeping their job out of sheer luck; but after 13 pages of negative reviews on a certain professor reviewing website … come on. We are reviewing easy, basic topics and i am completely stumped, which scares me for the future. Finally, I was worried that I wouldn’t make friends easily which is a silly thing to be worried about because I’m so charming (ha)
Essentially, I like Baruch a lot. The commute is very boring but it’s survivable and gives me another hour of sleep. I’ve met a lot of cool people that I want to keep around in my life. One thing that really confuses me is why the most selective and ‘most prestigious’ cuny has to baby their students. I don’t understand why we are forced to go to diversity acceptance workshops and while I admire you, Joanna, why we have to attend freshman seminars that teach us that we have to keep eye contact when talking to someone. I’ve lived in new york for 12 years of my life, and if there is one thing i know how to accept, its diversity. It just seems weird that for such a great ranked school they have to treat us like high-school students at some parts.
I really hope that my first year at Baruch will make me a better person. I hope to manage my workload better because i am often overworked, being that i work a job for hours a day as well as having school 5 days a week. I also hope it will make me more independent and a more grown person.
