My name is Brandon Rubinshtein. I am a student. That is how I identify myself. I find myself walking into a classroom and being scared not knowing anyone. what’s the first thing I feel? Anxiety. I don’t know what to expect. Is it going to be more work? Less work? Will I make new friends? The only people I can talk to right one are the few who came with me from high school in Brooklyn.
My number one concern would be that I won’t be able to keep up with the work. I’m used to slacking off in high school, and not taking it too seriously. Now I find myself overwhelmed by the work and the reality that if I don’t start taking my work seriously, I’m going to screw myself over.
Second, I am worried that I will remain undecided. I know we don’t have to decide our majors for a long time, bu I still have this fear that when it comes time to decide my career path, I wont know what to do.
Lastly, I am scared I won’t live up to expectations. Whether they be belonging to my parents, professors, or friends.
The one thing I find to be different from high school is the commute. That takes some getting used to. I used to be able to walk out of bed and into school. Not this year. Now it’s two trains and a bus. This commute is brutal.
I hope that at the culmination of may first year at Baruch, I will be able to see what my path in life will be. I will hopefully be more decisive about who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I hope that college will help me mature.
