A complex girl in a complex world

A persons’ identity is usually identified by their occupation. Therefore, “I am a student” would be an implied appropriate answer. Yet we are always changing what we do, from one job to the next. Thus, I’d consider, I am what I value, a more broad and yet precise answer. I am a poet, a lover, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a fill in the blank; completed by what I find important. Therefore, my perspective of significant values are the basis and main components of “me”, I am a happiness driven person who strives to feel fulfilled thus conquer self satisfaction. I see myself as an opinionated teenager, a complex individual with a friendly personality. I am a combination of who I “think” I am and what others think I am, yet who I am is where those two perspectives meet. My personality is welcoming enough to allow people to interact with me, yet one of my first concerns as a freshman was finding friends. Not friends like the ones you ask “ what was yesterdays homework” but the one you tell your secrets to. The workload forecast, added to my social dilemma. High school teachers normally forewarn college as a new environment with  higher standards. Yet I wasn’t sure whether that was a positive or negative thing, and whether I could adapt to the new realization of a more independent driven college culture. The independent factor also caused me stress. The idea of being alone when figuring things out, Am I ready? I realize now it’s not about being ready, making friends, being overloaded with papers but about time. Give time to the needed and things will work out, look at things in an optimistic manner. In high school, time was something I was aware of and incapable of respecting, I was the procrastinator. I left essays and homework for lazy Sundays and anxious hours before due dates. My three week experience as a freshman has proved my greatly approved theory that my procrastinator days had ended. I’ll have to do work in a more fashioned timely manner to make time for more pleasurable hobbies. In high school I took in golf, an in-depth time consuming sport. Although, it was made easier by the friendly personality my coach possessed, which had given me freedom to take a day off without no repercussion. Bu as a future cross country runner, my layback days are over, I’ll be coached by more strict principles. Such a principle; tardiness, I am not to be late. In high school lateness was the least of my problems. Consequently, change in discipline and structure will in turn help me become a more responsible and sufficient adult. The way I handle my college experience will be the foundation of a better future. I will learn to be fluent, educated, punctual and many other life necessities that will only help me succeed in a competitive world where childish actions are not cute or tolerated.