Who do I think I am? Well I for one am human, a female human to be exact. Or at least I hope I am because that’s that I’ve been telling myself all these years. If I were to go any further than that then I really wouldn’t have an answer. When I think I know who I am, I end up surprising myself with a brand new aspect of myself (and I wouldn’t say all of it is good). Yet I take it in stride and accept my flaws, although some can be harder to accept than others. I wouldn’t say I’m a good person but I wouldn’t say I’m a bad person either. I try to be a good person and as to whether I succeed or not, I can only say occasionally. So as of now and maybe later in the future, I can only say I am who I am and will refuse to specify.
At Baruch I’m afraid that I’m going to fail my classes no matter how hard I try because it just won’t process correctly in my head. If that is the case than I can only hope to endure those classes and pass, even if it’s cutting it close. I’m also concerned as to whether I’m making the right choices in my life. I wouldn’t want to chase after something and later find out it’s something I never really wanted in the first place.
Currently I find Baruch to be pretty similar to high school. We all attend class then go home or meet friends and just in general mind our own business. But it’s definitely different from high school in terms of management. I’m expected to manage everything by myself whether its tests and papers or making sure I’m taking the necessary classes to graduate. It’s not something I’m quite used to but I’m a pretty organized person so I figure it’s something I can get adhere to quickly. I also have to take my classes seriously and devote time to study. I didn’t have to study in high school and still get away with decent grades but I definitely have to change my habits now.
Hopefully by the end of my first year I’ll have a clue as to where I’m going with my life and if I’m going down the right path. This is probably a bit of a stretch for me but I hope I’ll stop procrastinating by the end of the year too. If I can get over that hurdle, I’m ready to go for anything.
