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As I’m writing my monologue at 11:51 pm I finally realize that I procrastinate too much. I planned on starting this thing when I got home at 6 but then I felt like napping and then I felt like watching a movie and then I felt like playing my ps3… It’s shocking to come from the lack of work that is senior year of highschool despite having two aps to all of the stuff they assign the day you walk into your college classes for the first time. It shows how just unprepared I left highschool and it makes me afraid for my future. I just can’t concentrate on boring material anymore and I quite frankly don’t care about the arguments between creationism and evolution or what it means to be black and middle class in America. I’m worried that my procrastination will carryon to the later years and as the material becomes more and more complex I will fall behind and fail. All Baruch students seem to think that they’re just gonna take their classes and become millionaire accountants but that isn’t how life works and i am unsure and scared of how to take steps to success. I’ve never been brought up in an easy environment and my parents aren’t afraid of threatening to kick me out if I don’t keep up at least a b average and completely meaning it. I’m thankful that most of my classes in baruch are easy for the moment however I think everyone expects me to mention math and the test that we all probably failed. All I know is that I definitely need to get myself together or I will regret it when I’m 40 years old and working in mcdonalds.