I always ask myself, “What is happiness?” and I always recall that I have a happy childhood. During that time, everything in my life can make me happy. The life was free form cares and worries. Everyday my little friends and I played games with each other; we could share our happiness in an easy way. When I grew up, the whole things have changed a lot. The happiness won’t be as simple as that time any longer. There are increasing troubles and decreasing happiness for me. Many things become unhappy. When I wonder what the happiness is, I cannot say a specific word to describe it. Sometimes I feel happy, that is a feeling, and it is not easy to say why I am happy.
And when I grew up, I began to be afraid of something that I am not afraid at my childhood, such as loneliness. I am afraid of being alone. It makes me feel lonely, and this feeling will make me uneasy. When I was a child, I never felt I was lonely, the little friends always stayed with me. All of us did not know the ways of the world, I thought at that time we lived in our own little world without any trouble and sadness. As time goes by, we become lonelier and lonelier in the big world.
I am also afraid of losing my family. My family is the most important thing for me. Without the family, I will feel lonely and hopeless. The family supports a home for me, the home is the place that we stay with each other, it does not need to be very big or luxurious, where we are, where our home is, and it makes me feel warm. I believe my family will not give up me forever. Everyone can give up me but they won’t. I trust them, and they trust me. We lean on each other for support. When I am sad or depressive, they will give the greatest support to me, I am very grateful, and I love my family.
I don’t know what I like best for myself, and I don’t know the reason, too. But I will try to figure it out. Now I am a college student, I think I should be more industrious. There are lot work needs to be done every day, so the biggest challenge with the school is the time management. I will try my best to work for it. Then enjoy my college life.
