Monologue

How I would describe myself? I consider myself to be outgoing, honest and an overall fun person to be around. I see myself as an avid volunteer in multiple organizations, which include North Shore Animal League, AHRC Nassau, Harlem Church outreach as well as a local church with an after school/ summer program specifically designed for children with disabilities. I am the oldest child in the family and I have a sister who is two years younger than I am.
I believe that I am very good with listening to the problems people may have since I enjoy being able to offer advice in many different perspectives. I enjoy spending time with my friends and family or even just driving around aimlessly passing beautiful scenery. If you haven’t been able to tell from my last sentence, I completely lack a sense of direction. Even with a GPS installed in my car, I find it difficult to stay on the road that they lead me on. Although I always think that my instincts are right, especially when it comes to an intersection, which merges in two directions, they never are. Similarly, when I first attempted to get to Baruch by myself from Penn Station, I took the wrong subway despite the fact that my mom had written me specific directions prior to leaving the house. I first ended up all the way on 53rd St. and then all the way down at West 4 St. Finally, after an hour, I got to Baruch but realized it was too late since the office already had closed.
I have always feared death and failure. The fact that an individual can lose his/ her life in a blink of an eye really terrifies me. Especially when I hear about tragic deaths in the news, most are spontaneous and it simply was the cause of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Since I am the oldest, I believe that there is a lot more pressure put on me to do well and achieve good grades every single time so that I may set a perfect example for my younger sister who never has any desire to study.
When am I happy? I’m happy when everyone around me is happy. I believe that smiling is highly contagious. Furthermore, if I receive a positive remark or grade, my self- esteem is boosted. When I’m comfortable in my own skin as well as with the choices I make, it is those moments that make me truly happy. Upset? I honestly was not a big fan of sleeping since I always thought it was a waste of time. However, recently, I have been finding it extremely difficult to stay awake during my classes. Also, since I take the LIRR during peak hours, there are barely any seats, and attempting to sleep while standing up is quite difficult.
I live my life with no regrets because I believe that everything happens for a reason. Although something does not end up in your favor does not mean you should merely give up on your goals and aspirations. It could all have been a game of chance and there could be better luck your way the next time around.