Hi! My name is Cynthia Xue and coming up is my monologue.
Do I go with it or not? What if it doesn’t turn out to be what I want to do? What do I do then? I can’t believe this is happening again. First it was high school, then college and now this. When I first started high school, I did not like it one bit and practically didn’t want to go to school the first week. I didn’t know anyone, didn’t like that it was in Brooklyn and wanted to switch schools. That ended up being pointless because I love my high school now. It’s pretty much the same for college. Didn’t like the fact that I ended up at a CUNY but after hearing my parents say this and that about Baruch, I decided that it isn’t that bad. But I’m still not at the stage of loving the school yet.
The reason why I said that it’s happening again now is that I do not like what I’m doing right now. Two nights ago, my dad was talking about how I went to the Medical Science program in Midwood, my high school, but that I do not intend to do anything related to that. That got me thinking about what I really want to do after I graduate college. But this goes back to high school and middle school. When I was young, I really wanted to be a doctor up until the whole health care bill started. I heard from someone that doctors would start getting paid by the hour and not by how many patients they see or what they actually do, meaning that doctors would make less money. Then all of a sudden I changed to wanted to work in business since I love math. But that was a stupid reason to change my desired job. That wasn’t the only reason though. It’s also because of the many years of school doctors need to attend in order to start working and I don’t want to become an actual doctor at 30.
Now back to two nights ago when I was thinking about becoming a nurse. Since I don’t want to become a doctor, I thought, a nurse is the closest thing to it so maybe I should become a nurse. I started comparing of what it would be like to be an accountant or be a nurse. I realized that although I like math and science, being an accountant would be too boring for me. I mean, how can you sit at a desk all day and just do the same thing again and again day after day? I don’t like doing things that are repetitive and getting bored after an hour in a quiet environment. So now it sounds like becoming a nurse would better suit me with all the action going on at the hospital. I wouldn’t get bored and start to hate my job. I can work as a nurse anywhere in the world because medical things are similar in many countries.
My point is that I’m being indecisive again and want to switch to something else. But this time I think is something that I would need to carefully make my decision or else it’ll ruin me and waste a lot of years. What if I really decided to switch my major and then after a year or so, want to go back to doing business? If I want to become a nurse, do I transfer to another school like NYU School of Nursing of stay at Baruch and get a nursing degree here? I think I’m going to go with nursing and take a risk, a very big risk.
