Regret

It took me a long time to agree with the saying that things happen for a reason. There is no sense in dwelling about the past because when one door closes another one opens.  Sometimes I think about what I leave behind every time I close a door. What if I closed the door on the best thing that could have happened to me? What if that test I didn’t ace prevented me from going to the college of my dreams? What if I took the chance and asked the girl who I have been dreaming about how she feels about me? Where would I be right now if I never came to the U.S? Questions like this plague me and sometimes I can’t get them out of my head. Listening to music is a great method of quelling the questions but they will resurface the next day. Everybody has something that they either regret doing or not doing. Regret is an entity that you can’t run away from and have to encounter eventually, or it will slowly eat you alive. It is a monster that, if you allow to, will turn every happy moment you have into remorse. Regretting makes you lose appreciation for what you have achieved and what you have. If I think about what could have been, I disregard everything I have right now and make it less valuable. Seeing incidents in which people are in unfavorable situations makes me realize how thankful I should be for what I do have. Sure, if I went to my dream college I would be happier, but would I have the support of my family and friends? The decisions that I make change my life and there is no point in them regretting because I can’t take it back. I slowly began to believe in fate, how events are destined to happen by forces out of my control. Life is not something that I can have control over to make sure that all situations have the best outcomes. I have learned to have a positive outlook on life and believe that in the long run, everything that I do will get me one step closer to the future that I envision.