First monologue…Nervous…Here goes nothing… >_<…awkward turtle…
On the first few weeks of school, I would end up scared. Scared because the environment was completely different than my high school. For one thing, there are actually guys in the school. Normally I would just see girls everywhere since I went to an all-girl high school, but now, it’s totally different. To me, the guys are some strange species that need to be avoided at all cost. I get completely shy around everyone I see since there are so many students and I’m pretty sure I won’t get to know all of them. Another thing would be the size of the school and the student population. Normally, classrooms would be a normal size with about thirty-two seats. But now, I see large classrooms that would have from a hundred to five hundred seats, and that’s really big. The student population is probably ten times bigger than my high school’s population. My high school population only had about four-hundred students in all four grades; with Baruch, there’s way more than that. I would always sit by myself while listening to the radio on my phone when I had my two hour break since I didn’t know that much people that went to Baruch and I was shy. I always had this feeling of insecurity and lost because college is so new to me; I am not used to this “independence” that I am getting.
So far two months have passed by. I am getting used to the environment and the school, but I am still having some slight problems, for instance, procrastination. I’ve been getting lazier and lazier with my work because I have more freedom in college than in high school, but I do get my work done. My classes aren’t that bad even though it’s a lot of studying and work, but I know as long as I pay attention in class and read the textbooks, I would be fine, sort of….maybe…probably…probably not… I made a couple of friends in my classes, and sometimes I would go hang out with them, which is a big step for me because I thought I wouldn’t make any friends in Baruch since my personality is kind of weird and childish, and I’m a quiet person in class. I am kind of getting used to guys being around the school even though I still ignore them, but when I do talk to them, I would talk to them as if I was talking to a girl, a trick my friend told me to use. I am enjoying my college life little by little and I hope to enjoy it even more as I continue this experience.
