I’m glad to be in college now but there was a time when I thought I would never go. I spent 4 years after high school traveling and working odd jobs. For a long time, I was used to the lifestyle of doing whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Waking up in the afternoon and staying up all night. I’m still adjusting to the 9 to 5 lifestyle but I’m proud of myself that I came back to college because a lot of people say they will and never do it.
For me, the most important people in my life are my mom and my girlfriend. They are the people I trust completely with every aspect of my life. It’s interesting to me that the most important people in my life are women because a few years ago I was fighting with my mom, closer to my dad and thought of myself as more likely to continue hooking up with random girls than be in a long term, monogamous relationship.
But my mom has really stepped up and really been there for me in tough times. She has been there for me through my dad’s death and a whole lot of family drama that resulted from that. She continues to support me in everything that I do and is someone I can always talk to her about my issues, even if I do annoy her occasionally. We still but heads from time to time, but I know how much she cares about me. My girlfriend is there for me consistently as well and has shown me that I can have emotional intimacy with another person where I give myself completely to them. I think that’s an important experience for anybody.
There are qualities I have that I really like and others that I wish were different. I like how if I really want something, I will always work and struggle to get it. In that sense I always ‘get what I want.’ But at the same time, I get frustrated easily with things I don’t have passion for. An assignment that’s tedious and pisses me off can make me annoyed and angry too easily. I can want to give up easily and throw my hands up, meanwhile cursing loudly. I am still working on learning to not get so irritated easily and learn to stay the course and figure things out. I think this outlook will help me in College and in life.
