For close friends and family I am the come-to girl; I am the one they turn to when they need support and a shoulder to lean on. I am always there to hear them out and help them handle the situation properly. But who is there for ME when I need help? Why don’t I have anyone to lean on? Honestly, I now tend to keep things to myself and prefer not to involve others with my problems. This wasn’t always
the case thought; just like everything else in life, it can be traced back to
one thing.
Three years ago, I began to get minor breast pain and so
one day I told my “best friend.” Believe it or not, he started LAUGHING; making
a big joke out of the situation. He was like, “you always whining about everything.” I am very weird and I won’t deny it, I laughed along with him. I mean, it wasn’t the first time I laughed at myself so that’s nothing new. I actually told a couple of other friends and I got the same reaction so from there on out I kept that “little” problem to myself.
Two years went by and the pain became a lot more frequent. It reached a point in
which it was unbearably excruciating pain and that’s when I decided to tell yet
another friend. Having known that cancer runs in my family, he took it very
seriously. After about a whole year of being insulted by him I finally agreed
to tell my mom and got it checked out… The doctor found a lump… That’s when I
broke down; I literally thought that was the end of me. I got tested and THANK GOD it wasn’t cancer, but that is when I realized that I don’t really trust anyone. Out of all the people I know, I can only count on one person and that is pathetically sad. It’s like; if I can’t trust my friends and family, how can I ever possibly trust anyone else?
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