My main fear in life is failure. I’m trying hard to get over that one because it stops me from trying new things that I feel like I have no chance of succeeding at. I am also deathly afraid of vacuum cleaners. Just the sound of one running makes me nervous. I think it’s because one time when I was little my brother stuck the vacuum on my face and I was kind of traumatized. Also rapists, Yankee stadium, public speaking, and the third rail of subway tracks.
Things that make me happy are Mets wins, dancing with my little sister, when my dog jumps up to greet me when I get home, vegan cupcakes, Parks and Recreation, painting, Jose Reyes triples, the Manning family, and going to concerts.
What’s most important to me right now is being able to finally go to school and succeed. It’s taken me a really long time to get to this point so I just want to do everything I can to avoid screwing it up.
What I like least about myself is how quiet I am. I hate that I have so much trouble speaking up for myself. What I like most about myself is my determination.
I play the roles of sister, student, activist, artist, fan, intern, friend, ally, and survivor.
An empowering moment in my life was getting into college. For a long time in my life, everyone told me I would never be able to, that I wasn’t smart enough, that I didn’t deserve to go. Getting into school without any help from anyone made me feel like I had power over my own life and could choose what I wanted to be. Starting at Baruch felt like things were finally going to change, and new possibilities were finally going to open up for me. I’m proud of all that I’ve overcome and I feel strong knowing that I don’t need to rely on anyone but myself anymore.
My theme song is Pearl Jam’s Unthought Known because I feel like the lyrics really represents where I am in my life right now, and reminds me of where I’m going.
Feel the path of every day/ Which road you taking?/ Breathing hard, making hay/ Yeah, this is living
Look for love and evidence/ That you’re worth keeping/ Swallowed whole in negatives/ It’s so sad and sickening
Feel the air up above/ Oh, pool of blue sky/ Fill the air up with love/ All black with starlight
Feel the sky blanket you/ With gems and rhinestones!/ See the path cut by the moon/ For you to walk on
See the path cut by the moon/ For you to walk on/ See the waves on distant shores/Awaiting your arrival/ Dream the dreams of other men/ You’ll be no one’s rival/ Dream the dreams of others then you will be no one’s rival
A distant time/ A distant space/ That’s where we’re living/ A distant time/ A distant place/ So what ya giving?
