Sorry for the last post, it slipped my mind.
-Hajime *Bow
Who is my worst enemy?
Is it the one who cannot be beaten or the one I refuse to beat.
I’ve done a bit of travelling and bit of fighting.
What does it all really amount to if “there’s always a bigger fish.”
At first my journey consisted of trying to find all of those bigger fish
I won some, lost some; made friends, enemies, and rivals.
I only felt the pride of victory for a second, but the sting of defeat for much longer,
time taunts me in this way, a cruel mistress.
I’m glad I met all these people because through them I grew and I learned
I learned techniques, strategies and more styles.
I have a sensei, he guides and teaches.
Sensei taught me to stand and move
But it was him and everyone else who strengthen my muscles.
It was everyone along my journey that showed me the “biggest fish”
I see him everyday and he relentlessly attacks my being
Regardless if I’m at my strongest or weakest; he doesn’t care
I see him in the mirror
I see me
Now is he the one who cannot be beaten or the one I refuse to beat
My excuses, my laziness, my pain, my doubt, and fear gives him strengthen.
They shackle my mind, body and spirit.
How can I beat him, he knows me better than any opponent I have ever fought.
Our battle is not short nor is it one where a clear victor can be seen.
Our battle is perpetual, lifelong and ever changing.
I stop myself from doing anything I want to do.
I am my worst enemy but will continue my struggle to win and train myself.
Alone, I am strong and knowledgeable.
With everyone, I am invincible and wise.
It is strange Alone I best use my strength but it only through contact that it grows.
Thank You, All for helping.
