Monologue … I Guess

I am like many of you. A person entering an exciting new world filled with unexpected expectations and everyday questions like “damn, did I pass that art history midterm?” Yea like that. I’m a person who can understand the world in all its complexities and simplicities but at the same time the world would have hard time figuring me out. Still I can’t blame it. I guess I could only identify myself as a paradox, I’m simple to look at but I’m beyond understanding like an artist follows his gospel but can’t help to find the vanity that surrounds him so alluring. I don’t think that makes me a bad person because I still have the desire to see girls smile out of happiness and write things about things that can touch a person’s heart. If anything that makes me human so that’s good to know.
Still like many people I made my mistakes and bad decisions, a few which cost me big time so much that I can’t even tell you what they are but like some people I lived up to my mistakes and moved on. Thankfully I had family and friends who helped me through that process. I hope to make many friends during my college years, the kind that can be there for you and in turn you could be there for them no matter what. Fortunately I have made these kinds of friends and I’m glad. I believe that family and friendships are irreplaceable so that’s why I always treasure the ones I have. They’re the only people who sees my faults but accept me for who I am.
I have the weird goal in life to at least live ti the age 81. As weird as that sounds I do have my reasons. A family member of mine lived up to that age and lead a very exciting life. He had many adventures around the world and told me amazing stories of what it was like to “live.” It‘s funny I was told these stories at a very young age where it would be impossible to remember anything from that point but even now I can remember vividly remember the excitements that came from his trips from the Philippians, Spain, and various parts of the Caribbean. Just from hearing these things I was determined not only to live a long life but to make the most of it and have those experiences the kind that this important person shared with me.