Post one: who am I?

To be honest, I think the question of “who am I?” is highly overrated and misused in this society. Why do people have a need to define who they are? Essentially, they end up defining WHAT they are instead. A student, a sister, a friend, a lover, a fighter, blah blah blah. These words lose meaning because they can be used to “define” millions of different people, narrowing absolutely nothing down. I can proudly proclaim that I have no idea who I am! And instead of spending my life on trying to find out something that cannot be changed, I prefer to just enjoy life without question.
For this reason, when the voice in the back of my head told me to choose to go to Baruch instead of Hunter, I didn’t question it. I acted. It makes no sense for someone who is aspiring to become a doctor to go to business school, but I did it anyway. This is one of my main concerns about being in Baruch, but it won’t truly worry me until that voice speaks out again and tells me to either transfer out or to change direction. Another one of my concerns is being able to balance work with school. This is the first time in my life that I have to do both at the same time, and to be honest, it could be going better. However I’m hoping that when I am able to choose my own schedule for next semester, I will be able to find a better balance and go to work more often. Also, I hope that eventually I will be able to overcome my social awkwardness and join some of the clubs at Baruch.
In high school I joined a lot of clubs, and I was even a founder and president of one, but in college the dynamics of the social functions feel different. It’s weird to walk down a hallway without knowing everyone and their mothers, and I miss that. But it’s smart to organize freshmen in blocks, because it’s so much easier to make friends. I’m hoping that my first year in college will encourage me to never give up my education again. I’m glad to be back in school, and it’s hard to get back in the rhythm of it, so I’ll try to keep my education continuous throughout my life.