monologue

I’ve been known to change personalities. It might be because I’m crazy. But, I dont believe in blaming the stars, thanking the gods, eating the fruit and all that crazy people mumbojumbo. I guess my crazy is do as I please and all that unethical bullshit.
I like planning ahead. I like being early; having everything its like i have a head start on everyone. I love it. It makes me feel powerful. I like that feeling. Its like that feeling you get when you pop bubble wrap, that OHH YEAHHH koolaid man feeling. But then after all that all you have left is some messed up pieces of plastic.
When people say that I will be succesful that makes me nervous. It can even irritate me. Like that ugly sweater you’d wear for family dinners. I don’t want to dissapoint anyone but then again why are they all up in my business? Why can’t I wear another sweater! Speaking of ugly things that iritate me…
I love my boyfriend. He’s not ugly or invited to my family dinners he’s just irritating. I’m really happy when my boyfriend doesnt act like an asshole. When he does act like an asshole it makes me unhappy because it brings out that uneasy feeling that one day soon i will do time for murder.
College it cool, I like that too. Its nice not to have someone on my back twenty-four seven. Who knew eighteen year olds were able to think for themselves. Maybe my mother could learn a thing or two from college. She’s asian like me. Y’all couldve guessed that. but shes a tiger mom. Never let you fail a test mom, dont talk to your brother like that mom, you shouldn’t curse mom, Satuday school is good for you mom!