Monologue

I could have sworn that just the other day I was asking my mother for permission to ride my bike on the sidewalk. But now I’m asking her for permission to borrow her car. Something isn’t right. I feel like I don’t have time for anything anymore. I used to stay up all night. Now I can barely stay up in some of my classes. There’s no such thing as free time anymore. I don’t have time for myself or anyone else. My days go by so quick and every day is the same. I wake up and get ready for school. Whenever I’m ready to leave, I walk to the train station and get on the train. If I’m lucky maybe only two people will ask me for some money. I mean I don’t really mind giving if I have it, but damn I gotta give somebody something EVERYDAY?!?! What about me? What am I gonna be left with? Anyways, I get to school and everything just becomes a blur. I feel like I’m moving in slow motion and some of my classes just makes everything worse. How my art teacher expects me to not fall asleep when she turns off all the lights and sounds like the guy from the Visine commercials?  And then expects me to know every last thing about art like my last name is Picasso? She should know better. The same things happen every day. Whenever I’m done with my classes for the day, I chill for a little bit then go to practice and only God knows when that’s gonna be over. Well when it is over, I get on the train and head back home. So on average, I end up home at like 10:30 – 11 p.m. Now you tell me where the hell did my day go? So you mean to tell me I’m supposed to come home and open a book? Yeah right, the only thing on my mind at this point is how many hours of sleep I’m getting. And being that I’m lazy doesn’t help the situation either. It’s like I’m always sleepy and I have no idea why. I mean don’t get me wrong I get things done when they need to be done. But I don’t know why whenever I think about work all I wanna do is suck my teeth. Like, there are so many other things that could be done in this world. Like instead of speaking to you guys right now, I could have been in the white house asking Michelle Obama what we’re having for dinner. Seriously. But honestly, I have big dreams and I’ve come too far to let them go. I have a vision and I swear I could see it so clearly. Ten years from now, I’m gonna go to one of those fancy little restaurants where you don’t even understand what they have on the menu and I’m gonna pay the bill for me and my friends and tell the waiter to keep the change. Then, I’m gonna give him a $100 dollar tip just cause I could do that. Ahhh I can see it now. Oh and I’m definitely gonna go back to all my old schools and tell all my teachers and professors “LOOK AT ME NOW!” But anyways, I’ll just do whatever I have to do now to get where I want to go.