Before I went to Baruch College, I expected myself to be more confident. I thought the classes will just be as easy as the classes in my high school. But as time goes on, I find such expectations are not easy to accomplish. I am still not confident enough, especially when I speak English in front of many people. I feel my paper will always have many grammar mistakes, and feel unconfident if I do not go to the writing center. The classes are way more difficult than what I thought before. There are lots of readings to handle for one day. These readings are tough and long. I often misunderstand the materials in the reading, or totally did not understand what it says.
I think my first semester is OK. I believe I can do better as I become more comfortable with the college life. I am happy that I meet many new people. They are all very nice and helpful. I also feel good that I can finish so many essay assignments and exams successfully. But I am still nervous about the coming final week. These exams will be really important for deciding my final grades.
If I could do my first semester again, I will definitely manage my time better. I still remember in some days, I went to bed until the midnight just because I had to finish my readings or the essays. I felt so regret at those nights. I told myself I should start to read these articles or write my papers three or four days before. I also think I should be more socialized in our campus. I should try to join some clubs; it will give my college life more fun.
The time passes so quickly, my first semester in Baruch is almost done. I feel I changed a lot. I become more independent. I realize the college professors will not chase you to do your homework. It is all on our own. It is all about our responsibilities. It is all about whether you want to get good grades all not. I also feel I become more responsible and determined. Although there are a lot of work to do, and they are really hard, I never run away.
