I am a people pleaser. I care a lot about what people others
think of me so I act differently with different people because I feel they
expect different things. I don’t think I fit in to any clique. I like all kinds
of music and all sorts of people. I am not one kind of person. I am friendly. Chances
are even if I don’t like you I’m nice to you. I feel bad being mean. I’m also
very shy. It comes across as rude sometimes. I never want it to but I am
painfully shy when you first meet me. I am also a little crazy when it comes to
stress. I worry about everything. I worry about what people are thinking, how I
look, how much homework I have, how I don’t have time for a job, and how I’m
going to get job because I need money. Some of my worries are legitimate but
others are just stupid. I wouldn’t consider myself a pessimist. I think of the worst
out comes, but I hope for the best.
My top 3 concerns coming into Baruch are how
much work I have to do, making friends, and all the money I have to spend. There’s
so much reading to do and so many things to buy. I think my Baruch experience
will be different than my high school experience because I won’t know most of
the people here. My high school was pretty small and I knew so many people. I didn’t
know about two or three people in my graduating class. I liked that. Baruch is
very different for me, but I don’t mind it so much. Change is good. Baruch will
change me by making me more comfortable with myself. I’m so used to having all
my high school friends around me. I feel weird without them around. I will
become used to not seeing them every day. And I will also get used to all the
work and pressure that comes from college. My parents are putting more pressure
on me than ever and college is enough pressure enough. I don’t handle pressure
well. I get very panicky. I hope by the end of freshman year I will be able to
handle my stress better.
