Monologue

Who am I? I don’t know; sometimes it’s hard to say and to be honest I hate when I’m asked that. I’m Usman and I’m 18 years old. That’s the only two things I’m sure about. There’s two things I love more then anything; and that is my family and my girlfriend. I think that I’m caring towards the people I love and I try to look out for them as much as possible. I feel as if I’m finding my own in this world. I have a job that pays for my bills, and I’m going to school to become successful later on in life. One of my big concerns about freshman year at Baruch is the fast paced lifestyle of being in college. The school is ten times bigger then my high school and its a little intimidating. I also am concerned about getting good grades and getting ahead without falling behind too much. Finally, I want to fit in and integrate into the Baruch community. I know its not like high school where those things actually matter but I still don’t want to be an outcast and actually do want to make friends. My Baruch experience will be different from my experience in high school in many ways, but one that will be the most different is the size and how it affects my behavior. My high school Townsend Harris had 1200 students, this school has over twelve thousand so that alone is a little hard to adjust too. Since there are so many people the pace is faster then my high school and its a little hard to keep up with at time but I am definitely adjusting nicely. My first year in college may change others but I doubt it will change me a lot. I know that I’m hardworking and I’ll stay that way and I also am determined so that will definitely not change. The teacher makes us feel weird my saying we aren’t real students but my only mistake was that I applied a month late to CUNY’s. I feel I belong in college so I don’t really think college will change me too much at all. I’m very mature and know how to talk and how to behave and also am very independent already with my own job and own way of paying my bills. I can’t wait to see what Baruch has to offer then maybe in 3 or 4 years when you ask who I am, I’ll actually have a better answer.