Author Archives: ernest.rozenblyum

As the first semester comes to an end, I can’t help but to be thankful. Baruch is alright, classes are decent and I’ve met some cool people but the commute is dreadful. It is really annoying having to be on public transportation both to and back from school for an hour and a half each. Sometimes there are no seats and I need to stand after going through a whole day of classes! I also don’t consider myself to be a morning person so when I force myself to wake up at 6:30am every single day I feel like I’m slowly killing myself. This is why for my next semester courses, I picked an afternoon schedule. Hopefully this will allow me to rest and be more cheery. Baruch has not really made my expectations. The escalators never work which just depresses me even further and it surprises me how some professors can keep their jobs after the way they teach. I still have hope now that I picked my own professors, but that is the story for another day. If I was to change one thing about this semester, its that I wish I joined a club. This would occupy me throughout the long breaks and maybe would have made me happier.

As I’m writing my monologue at 11:51 pm I finally realize that I procrastinate too much. I planned on starting this thing when I got home at 6 but then I felt like napping and then I felt like watching a movie and then I felt like playing my ps3… It’s shocking to come from the lack of work that is senior year of highschool despite having two aps to all of the stuff they assign the day you walk into your college classes for the first time. It shows how just unprepared I left highschool and it makes me afraid for my future. I just can’t concentrate on boring material anymore and I quite frankly don’t care about the arguments between creationism and evolution or what it means to be black and middle class in America. I’m worried that my procrastination will carryon to the later years and as the material becomes more and more complex I will fall behind and fail. All Baruch students seem to think that they’re just gonna take their classes and become millionaire accountants but that isn’t how life works and i am unsure and scared of how to take steps to success. I’ve never been brought up in an easy environment and my parents aren’t afraid of threatening to kick me out if I don’t keep up at least a b average and completely meaning it. I’m thankful that most of my classes in baruch are easy for the moment however I think everyone expects me to mention math and the test that we all probably failed. All I know is that I definitely need to get myself together or I will regret it when I’m 40 years old and working in mcdonalds.

I really don’t know how to describe myself. I act funny, random, and silly in class but in reality that isn’t me at all. I’ve been placed in a very competetive setting all my life with stress and conflict all around me, so i just got used to trying to lighten the mood when things get tough. Nowadays, I try and crack jokes when i’m bored or tired but i’m actually a very serious person with dreams I do wish to fulfill while at baruch.

My top 3 concerns with baruch are that if its truly the school I was meant to go to. I had the grades to go to out of state colleges, but I chose to stay here because I guess i’m just not mature enough to leave all of my connections behind. There are those that are way too dear to me to just leave in new york while i go to a fancy suny and possibly get the same education i would get back at home. Another concern I have now is how I will be able to pass my pre-calculus course. It seems like there are professors here at this school that are keeping their job out of sheer luck; but after 13 pages of negative reviews on a certain professor reviewing website … come on. We are reviewing easy, basic topics and i am completely stumped, which scares me for the future. Finally, I was worried that I wouldn’t make friends easily which is a silly thing to be worried about because I’m so charming (ha)

Essentially, I like Baruch a lot. The commute is very boring but it’s survivable and gives me another hour of sleep. I’ve met a lot of cool people that I want to keep around in my life. One thing that really confuses me is why the most selective and ‘most prestigious’ cuny has to baby their students. I don’t understand why we are forced to go to diversity acceptance workshops and while I admire you, Joanna, why we have to attend freshman seminars that teach us that we have to keep eye contact when talking to someone. I’ve lived in new york for 12 years of my life, and if there is one thing i know how to accept, its diversity. It just seems weird that for such a great ranked school they have to treat us like high-school students at some parts.

I really hope that my first year at Baruch will make me a better person. I hope to manage my workload better because i am often overworked, being that i work a job for hours a day as well as having school 5 days a week. I also hope it will make me more independent and a more grown person.