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I remember coming to orientation a bit excited. But at convocation, I was determined to transfer out. I’m not a Baruch person, I told myself.  But I stayed. Now I don’t wanna leave, and it’s all your fault, guys. LC 13 all day, everyday.

It’s a bit hard to let go. Truth is, I love coming to college everyday and seeing your faces every morning. I enjoyed expressing discontent at the previous night’s homework and all the papers we’d have due the next week every day we met. Everything we went through really impacted me more than what you guys would believe. I’m so much more outgoing now than I was when we met!

It is a bit depressing that we won’t see each other as often as we’d like to. But, the bottom line is, this LC became more than what I’d ever expected. I expected boredom, you gave me shellshock. I expected a shitload of work. You gave me hope. I expected chaos and turmoil, you gave me peace. I expected anonymity, you gave me a nickname. I expected friends, but you gave me family.

Love you guys

I do it big, I’m on my college flow

I’m on the elevator to the top floor

And I won’t put this pen down ’till my hand’s sore.

Trying to be all I can, that’s what I aim for.

Music is my life, what else can I say

I think about it, dream about it, everyday

But they never let me gain ground

My words were too heavy, that’s why they put me down.

It’s all good, I forgave them

Put my feelings down on the paper, scared them

They thought they had it coming to them, but I spared them

Waste of time, I’m a cookie monster, they’re a cookie crumb

And I don’t have blood cells

My heart pumps music while you’re spitting blank shells

And I don’t make the game, I just play it well

The story of your life collects dust on my bookshelves

Try living in my shoes,  it’s tug of war

Sometimes I feel like I can’t do this anymore

It’s not about the money or the VMA awards

I’m just trying to save rap ’cause it’s on life support

Watching all these artists crucify my passion

Rapping ’bout money and cars they never had and

All the while they be driving in a Volkswagen

They dream about dropping 28’s on a Black Benz

Damn, all you care about is rhyming

I focus on the meaning and the rhymes become a side thing.

That’s just the way I do this

I don’t need to rhyme to make your ass look stupid.

Time to wrap it up, vote of thanks, thank you God

Shout outs to my mom, dad and grandma

Stunting on the clouds, I’m so fly, it’s a new year.

I’m signing off, boss junior.

I am Justin. I was named by a cousin. It’s a good thing, because if my parents had named me, not many people would be able to pronounce it. And then I’d have to revert to a nickname. But Justin is my name. I was born and raised in Queens all my life. For the time being, I attend Baruch as a freshman in our wonderful LC. I have an older brother who turned 20 yesterday, and a younger sister who is 15. I think.

I play the role of the “Go-to guy”.  Everyday life for me sounds like “Fix this” or “How do I do this?”  or even “What’s the answer to this?”.I like this role. It gives me a certain level of power which, if I choose to exercise, would impact the lives of those who depend on me. It feels good to be wanted. Not FBI wanted or anything but you get the point.I’m a tech-MANIAC. People look at technology and ask questions like “Why won’t this print?” or “What’s taking it so long to load?”. I look at technology and see a world of possibilities. I’m not really an outgoing person. I like to keep to myself. I don’t speak much unless spoken to, or if I have something to say. A lot of my replies are a nod or a smile. This probably gives off the vibe that I’m not a sociable person but I am! The weirdest thing about me would probably be that I can drink milk with anything. And I really do mean anything.

My concerns for Baruch this year are mainly time management, figuring out why I’m here and whether I should get a job. My time management skills suck. I tend to leave things for  later when I can. I had a basketball tournament last Sunday and I could have done all my work on Friday or even Saturday but I waved it off until Sunday night. I stayed up late just one night and my whole sleeping schedule got messed and I’ve been sleeping in class. I’m not much of a ninja either, so my professors see it too I gotta make and adhere to a strict schedule if I ever want to keep up with all the work.

Why am I here? I’m not a business guy. This is primarily a business school, what am I doing here? I wish I knew. Everyone I talk to says how great Baruch is, but I’m more worried about what my major is. Should I transfer out? Where do I go? I know I want to do something with computers, but what can Baruch offer me? But I’m starting to like Baruch and I feel like by the end of the semester, you couldn’t pull me out of here with pliers if you tried. I’m going to hard to figure out what I want to do this semester.

I haven’t worked for a single penny in my life. I’m not spoiled or anything; far from it actually. I feel that my education is my responsibility, so why burden my parents with it? So I’m a bit concerned about getting a job, mainly if I’d be able to juggle the both together without colliding. Things aren’t cheap here in the city so I’d like to have a job that doesn’t require much hours and pays well.

I think the freedom I have at Baruch will make my college experience different from my high school experience. Especially since Baruch is in the city and we have a ton of stuff to do during our 2 hour breaks (Shellshock!).

I hope that this first year at Baruch helps me develop good habits like studying and taking notes that I lacked in high school. I’ll also meet a lot more people and mingle with people of different cultural backgrounds. I already have a widened perception of life itself as soon as I stepped out of the high school scene and entered Baruch, so hopefully it’ll continue.