To Professor X,

First monologue…Nervous…Here goes nothing… >_<…awkward turtle…

On the first few weeks of school, I would end up scared. Scared because the environment was completely different than my high school. For one thing, there are actually guys in the school. Normally I would just see girls everywhere since I went to an all-girl high school, but now, it’s totally different. To me, the guys are some strange species that need to be avoided at all cost.  I get completely shy around everyone I see since there are so many students and I’m pretty sure I won’t get to know all of them. Another thing would be the size of the school and the student population. Normally, classrooms would be a normal size with about thirty-two seats. But now, I see large classrooms that would have from a hundred to five hundred seats, and that’s really big. The student population is probably ten times bigger than my high school’s population. My high school population only had about four-hundred students in all four grades; with Baruch, there’s way more than that. I would always sit by myself while listening to the radio on my phone when I had my two hour break since I didn’t know that much people that went to Baruch and I was shy. I always had this feeling of insecurity and lost because college is so new to me; I am not used to this “independence” that I am getting.

So far two months have passed by. I am getting used to the environment and the school, but I am still having some slight problems, for instance, procrastination. I’ve been getting lazier and lazier with my work because I have more freedom in college than in high school, but I do get my work done. My classes aren’t that bad even though it’s a lot of studying and work, but I know as long as I pay attention in class and read the textbooks, I would be fine, sort of….maybe…probably…probably not… I made a couple of friends in my classes, and sometimes I would go hang out with them, which is a big step for me because I thought I wouldn’t make any friends in Baruch since my personality is kind of weird and childish, and I’m a quiet person in class. I am kind of getting used to guys being around the school even though I still ignore them, but when I do talk to them, I would talk to them as if I was talking to a girl, a trick my friend told me to use. I am enjoying my college life little by little and I hope to enjoy it even more as I continue this experience.

Three Academic Challenges: 

1. Falling alseep

2. Reading the textbook

3. Getting to class on time

Hello there! My name is Chanel. I am eighteen years old. I am from Staten Island. I graduated from Saint Joseph Hill Academy. I am a shy,quiet, and innocent girl to those who I don’t know because I don’t like to speak in public. However, when I am around my friends and family I am pretty random, crazy, and just plain weird, but still innocent. I am kind of a procrastinator, but sometimes I get things done early if I am motivated.

One of the top concerns I have about my freshman year in Baruch College would be the environment. I am not used to the big classrooms, students, and especially the guys. The reason is that I went high school where it’s an all- girl Catholic school and the school itself has a small population of students and small classrooms with a maximum of thirty students in a class. I’m also not used to the city because Staten Island is  isolated so it’s kind of scary to see a lot of people walking around outside of Baruch College. Another concern I have is being able to make friends. Since I am not used to the environment, it’s hard of me to make friends even though I know that the students are very nice and open. I would like to make some friends, but I’m just very shy that I stay in my comfort zone of just hanging out by myself. A third concern I have are the papers I have to write and the studying. I don’t know how to study correctly and papers scare me just because of how many pages the professors wants the students to write. =X

I think what makes my Baruch College experience different from my high school experience is the responsibility that I have. I know that during college the professors are not going to remind me of the deadlines for papers and the day of exams. In college there is more freedom for me, which makes me kind of scared because I have no idea what to do with this freedom I have.

I think my first year at College will change me a little. I would be able to open up to other people, make friends, and join clubs. I probably will have a better time management with the deadlines and exams.