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I was expecting college to be stressful and boring. But actually if you manage your time WISELY it’s doesn’t have to be so overwhelming. College was what teachers said it was; reading and essays. I think it’s actually better then high school; you learn what your interested in and there’s no useless homework each night. But it’s not that party gone wild I was expecting it to be; it’s just I place you go in and out of each day for 4 years.

I definitely think I could have done much better. Unfortunately, I brought some of my old high-school habits along with me. So my goal next semester is to manage my time, STOP procrastinating, take the train on time and be the student I know I can be.

I would try to do my best and stop slacking off. I know that college will pay off so I’m going to stop being lazy. If restless nights are what I need to have a career I’m willing to sacrifice as many hours of sleep necessary. Also come out of my shell more and be the goofy girl everyone in family knows me for.

I’m thinking more about my future. I know I’ve made some academic mistakes but I know I can be better. I realize that college is just the beginning of a new life. College has allowed be to be less afraid of being independent and allowed to understand it’s not about making other people happy but about making myself proud of my own accomplishments.

I was expecting college to be stressful and boring. But actually if you manage your time WISELY it’s doesn’t have to be so overwhelming. College was what teachers said it was; reading and essays. I think it’s actually better then high school; you learn what your interested in and there’s no useless homework each night. But it’s not that party gone wild I was expecting it to be; it’s just I place you go in and out of each day for 4 years.

I definitely think I could have done much better. Unfortunately, I brought some of my old high-school habits along with me. So my goal next semester is to manage my time, STOP procrastinating, take the train on time and be the student I know I can be.

I would try to do my best and stop slacking off. I know that college will pay off so I’m going to stop being lazy. If restless nights are what I need to have a career I’m willing to sacrifice as many hours of sleep necessary. Also come out of my shell more and be the goofy girl everyone in family knows me for.

I’m thinking more about my future. I know I’ve made some academic mistakes but I know I can be better. I realize that college is just the beginning of a new life. College has allowed be to be less afraid of being independent and allowed to understand it’s not about making other people happy but about making myself proud of my own accomplishments.

I began with a purpose

A motive

Driven by faith

Broken

By destiny

 

I became attached to

Unwanted reminisces

Distorted by

Painful contradictions

Of what I ever wanted

 

I was belonging to the wrong societal

Universe

I wasn’t suppose to be there

I wasn’t supposed to be “her”

 

Realized

That wasn’t my world

That wasn’t my home

 

Here in his heart

That’s where I belonged

That’s where I’m safe

That’s where I’m strong

 

Today

I remember who I was

Who I pretended to be

 

Today I’m just me

 

A woman

 

With

A three party

Family

With an angel

And a miracle

 

Alan

The whistling wind

That glides its way

Into my lungs and

Through my veins

 

He’s tied to a Chicana

By simultaneously beating hearts

 

He knows her

The way she knows

Him

 

I’m

Eighteen

The basic

 

Everything else

The mystery

Can only be discovered

Not told

Or written

 

Observe

Talk

Assume

But never

Underestimate

 

Understand

The I am question

As no answer

But has potential

A persons’ identity is usually identified by their occupation. Therefore, “I am a student” would be an implied appropriate answer. Yet we are always changing what we do, from one job to the next. Thus, I’d consider, I am what I value, a more broad and yet precise answer. I am a poet, a lover, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a fill in the blank; completed by what I find important. Therefore, my perspective of significant values are the basis and main components of “me”, I am a happiness driven person who strives to feel fulfilled thus conquer self satisfaction. I see myself as an opinionated teenager, a complex individual with a friendly personality. I am a combination of who I “think” I am and what others think I am, yet who I am is where those two perspectives meet. My personality is welcoming enough to allow people to interact with me, yet one of my first concerns as a freshman was finding friends. Not friends like the ones you ask “ what was yesterdays homework” but the one you tell your secrets to. The workload forecast, added to my social dilemma. High school teachers normally forewarn college as a new environment with  higher standards. Yet I wasn’t sure whether that was a positive or negative thing, and whether I could adapt to the new realization of a more independent driven college culture. The independent factor also caused me stress. The idea of being alone when figuring things out, Am I ready? I realize now it’s not about being ready, making friends, being overloaded with papers but about time. Give time to the needed and things will work out, look at things in an optimistic manner. In high school, time was something I was aware of and incapable of respecting, I was the procrastinator. I left essays and homework for lazy Sundays and anxious hours before due dates. My three week experience as a freshman has proved my greatly approved theory that my procrastinator days had ended. I’ll have to do work in a more fashioned timely manner to make time for more pleasurable hobbies. In high school I took in golf, an in-depth time consuming sport. Although, it was made easier by the friendly personality my coach possessed, which had given me freedom to take a day off without no repercussion. Bu as a future cross country runner, my layback days are over, I’ll be coached by more strict principles. Such a principle; tardiness, I am not to be late. In high school lateness was the least of my problems. Consequently, change in discipline and structure will in turn help me become a more responsible and sufficient adult. The way I handle my college experience will be the foundation of a better future. I will learn to be fluent, educated, punctual and many other life necessities that will only help me succeed in a competitive world where childish actions are not cute or tolerated.