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My Lion’s Mane. (again) Blog Post 1

So, I could have sworn that I had Blog Post 1 in here, but where did it go? weird huh?

Well anyway, here it is once more.

Out of the hundreds and thousands of students passing the doors of Baruch everyday, I stand out. No matter who you are, a professor, a student, a faculty or staff, you have seen me. For those who haven’t, you will get your chance. I will soon be known as the girl in the blue scarf…the girl with the lion’s mane. Why? It’s pretty obvious. All you have to do is glance my way. My lion’s mane is who I am as a whole. I am a community giver, a friend, a survivor, and a writer. I am a speaker, a pianist, an educator and most importantly, I am a Muslim. Many Muslims are afraid to talk about themselves and who they really are…I’m different. Whether I want to hide or just shun myself from the world, it is an impossible task. The world is my stage and all eyes are on me. Red converse shoes, short, brown dress, and with my lion’s mane, it’s hard to miss this simple girl trying to be heard.

Time management is a prowess yet to be mastered. My predilection of reading leisurely has now ceased to be. Words are comfort. They are more than just friends; they are who you want it to be. I want to be heard. I want my writing to be inspiring. I have to start now but my concern is how? The clock ticks mercilessly against the scribbles of my paper and pen. Pretty soon, time will be up. Will I be heard? Like all of us, I wonder how many friendships I will make…and how many I’ll lose. Life is a troubling place to not have best friends.

I feel the presence of Bernard Baruch when I walk in. He walks up, unlocks all of my doors and opportunities, and throws the key far away so I will never be able to close them. I feel Bernard Baruch pushing me to take risks and things I would have never took interest in. It’s overpowering sometimes. It’s different from high school. Really different. Taking chances were rare. Sometimes, I feel its safer to keep things in so the only one judging would be myself. Fortunately, Baruch is not letting me do so. He’s wanting me to be heard.

Every now and then, there’s a fork in the road. I begin to walk in one path, peering at my surroundings and sensing the “would-be” success at the end. As I choose that rocky avenue, I have my eyes on another path, certain that I have made a mistake. The first year will give me the breaks to test and try new things. From the performing arts, Encounters Magazine, to helping fellow classmates and volunteering for the community, I think the first year will change me for the good. Nothing is guaranteed so I really don’t have much time to fear. I have to make my mark and go for it. So bring it on!

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Workshop 3: Writing Winning Resumes

Yesterday, along with other fellow “Baruchians”, I attended the Winning Resume Workshop hosted by the Starr Career Development Center. Who knew that there were so many types of resumes? The main thing that kept popping on my mind was how little experience I have! Leadership, teamwork, and academics are the core necessities in creating a good resume.

The instructors told the class that every experience counts. Whether you are a cashier at a store or an intern at a big business company, they are all experiences that develop our social skill. The important fact is how to write it.

Let’s say you were a casher right, and you think you have no credentials. Well, I hope I am NOT the first to say that that is totally not true! As a cashier you would handle money. This means you are trustworthy. Of course, there is always that idea that says ‘take it and leave’.  Being the fact that you are trustworthy says a lot (especially to all of you business majors). So why not put it on your resume?

Cool huh? But remember, even though everything is an experience, you have to judge which of those are eye-catchers and those that are just mundane. I learned a lot from this workshop and will definitely seek another like this one…but with my own resume in hand!

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My First Semester in Baruch

When I began this semester, I’ll admit that I was excited. I thought it would finally mean freedom. I guess it kind of is. However, I definitely realized that responsibility and independence are required elements that I had to have. I’m sure you’ve seen the list of the 10 least happy colleges. Finishing off that list is non other then our very own college. I can’t help but agree.

I guess I was that type of person that expected too much when I started. However as time went on, I realized that if I want an amazing college life, I have to get it (and hang on to with along with all the academic work) rather than it coming to me. I am thrilled to say that it worked for me real well. I auditioned for a play that will be performed in the Spring semester. I am proudly a member of the Writer’s Society. I got the chance to practice my musical talent with the pianos up in the music room on the seventh floor.  Thanks to Freshman Seminar, I made really cool friends and got to do many volunteer opportunities with them (and we will continue on!).  I had the chance to be acquainted with the editors of Encounters Magazine. It’s pretty cool so far. I honestly have to say that I am having a lot of fun. Is school meant to be fun? Haha. I am really happy that it is…at least for me.

Now that I think about it, I kind of want to change one thing. I would like to go back in time (with the knowledge that I already have) and just start joining clubs earlier and d more things rather than be confused and feel nameless in the halls of Baruch College. Well, nothing is ever too late. I really hope you guys participate in clubs too. You really have to check out this city. It’s wicked!

Have I changed since I started college? Oh Yeah! Definately. I think I changed mentally, phyiscally, and well…academically. The rush of adrenaline from the late papers, the anxiousness of exams and quizzes, and the crazy and loving times in clubs really made a difference. I hope you see the change in me from the first day until now. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I really hope the next few years go slow so I can enjoy some more of college life!

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Community Service Experience: NY CARES Photography Club

Me and my fellow volunteers

For my group’s community service activity, we decided to join an event from New York Cares. We assisted an elementary school photography after-school program. Pictures are worth a thousand words.  We helped the community by teaching the young students how to identify, analyze, and make conclusions on what they see. These are life long lessons. Words are not presented everywhere we go. Thus, using descriptive skills can lead to better understandings not only of the picture but of the world.

When I think of volunteering, I usually think of a soup kitchen or a hospital. Although I have worked with kids, it wasn’t until this experience that I became more social with them. I thought it was be unmanageable and a bit chaotic.

            It felt good and enjoyable to give up my time and energy to help the kids learn about the world. We went to many diverse trips that showed them a different side of the world. (We went to volunteer for this after-school program more than once because it was such a delight the first time.)

             Even though the students were learning how to “read” pictures, I believe I caught some of the knowledge as well. It was interesting when we all went to the Ruben Museum of Art to see the Buddhist and Hindu statues, pictures, and photos. I learned that children are very engaging when it comes to art.  I learned that punctuality is important. If you’re not on time, then the show still goes on with or without you. I also learned that NY CARES is an amazing opportunity to do vast fields of volunteer work and still have loads of fun.

            The most trying experience would be bonding with the students. Fifth graders are the seniors of elementary school. They are the role models of all their younger peers. They are not little kids but are soon to be pre-teens who don’t favor the topics of silly cartoons or their favorite flavor of ice-cream. It was hard to talk to them about a subject we both were interested in. Silence usually filled the room. However I learned that this batch of fifth graders was into music and sports. Laughter and conversation soon spilled the once I realized there was common ground between us.

            Education is not just math and science. It is creativity, communications, and patience.

A group picture taken after the photo tour at the museum

By teaching the students how to identify photos, they achieved creativity. Creativity is necessary to help solve problems that d not have the most obvious solutions. The pictures and photos they analyzed were of different cultures and religion. This too, helped broaden their minds about the world and is a step to help make them be more open-minded to people that may not be of the same origin as they are.

            This volunteer experience relates to the Leadership and Service session in two ways. Being in charge of ten students is a big responsibility. Leadership was needed to help direct, assist, and be responsible of the students while we went on trips. The second way is that as a leader, I had to cooperate with the teachers and faculty and comply with their requests but also instruct tasks so the after-school trips would be a success.

            By this community service experience, I learned to be more patient. I am very outgoing and engaging but there were times when I needed to reserve myself and let the students take over those roles. Patience was the key.

            I think this community service activity impacted my decisions on what I want to do in the future. By volunteering, it helped me decide on what I want to become based on the experiences I went through instead of blindly picking a job. The most important thing I learned was to be open-minded. They are so many types of people, places, and jobs that it becomes a requirement to be observant and an acceptant of all types.

            I do see myself very well involved in community service because it is a chance to gain experience and have fun.

            A one sentence headline to sum up my experience would be, “Pictures worth a thousand words opened up minds and created relationships for future generation.”

           

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Fear

Fear.

Fear is the rush of adrenaline that brings in anxiety, shame, and unacceptance in a person. It would be the fear of shame that may engulf a girl like me. However, it is not the shame of fear that sends the heart pounding. Shame itself may be a subcategory of fear but it’s definition leads to vast fields of stress and hurt.

I am afraid of shame.

Fear.

Fear occurs when all eyes are on me. They only judge what they see. It’s hard to portray who I am with people if they only take one glance at me. Doesn’t it make you feel disgusted to judge someone by seeing only the differences? Doesn’t it? Well. It should. It’s a cruel and thoughtless crime. There are some people in this world that give me a chance…only to discover that it wasn’t worth it.

I am afraid of judgment.

Fear.

Fear is when I ask myself what is courage? Can someone please tell me? I really need to know. I try and I try but I hit the ground hard, getting scars on my knees and hands. I get frightened. It’s hard to have hope afterwards. I know if I have the courage to stand strong and voice out my thoughts, things will be better. Yet I can’t find my voice. I don’t know what it sounds like anymore.

I am afraid of cowardice.

I look in the mirror and I see her. I see a strong girl…a girl that has so much potential; a girl that is determined and someone who doesn’t say no to giving up no matter how difficult it is.

 

I lost her.

 

I don’t know where she is anymore.

 

 

I’m on my own.

 

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Who I Think I Am: My Lion’s Mane

 

Out of the hundreds and thousands of students passing the doors of Baruch everyday, I stand out. No matter who you are, a professor, a student, a faculty or staff, you have seen me. For those who haven’t, you will get your chance. I will soon be known as the girl in the blue scarf…the girl with the lion’s mane. Why? It’s pretty obvious. All you have to do is glance my way. My lion’s mane is who I am as a whole. I am a community giver, a friend, a survivor, and a writer. I am a speaker, a pianist, an educator and most importantly, I am a Muslim. Many Muslims are afraid to talk about themselves and who they really are…I’m different. Whether I want to hide or just shun myself from the world, it is an impossible task. The world is my stage and all eyes are on me. Red converse shoes, short, brown dress, and with my lion’s mane, it’s hard to miss this simple girl trying to be heard.

Time management is a prowess yet to be mastered. My predilection of reading leisurely has now ceased to be. Words are comfort. They are more than just friends; they are who you want it to be. I want to be heard. I want my writing to be inspiring. I have to start now but my concern is how? The clock ticks mercilessly against the scribbles of my paper and pen. Pretty soon, time will be up. Will I be heard? Like all of us, I wonder how many friendships I will make…and how many I’ll lose. Life is a troubling place to not have best friends.

I feel the presence of Bernard Baruch when I walk in. He walks up, unlocks all of my doors and opportunities, and throws the key far away so I will never be able to close them. I feel Bernard Baruch pushing me to take risks and things I would have never took interest in. It’s overpowering sometimes. It’s different from high school. Really different. Taking chances were rare. Sometimes, I feel its safer to keep things in so the only one judging would be myself. Fortunately, Baruch is not letting me do so. He’s wanting me to be heard.

Every now and then, there’s a fork in the road. I begin to walk in one path, peering at my surroundings and sensing the “would-be” success at the end. As I choose that rocky avenue, I have my eyes on another path, certain that I have made a mistake. The first year will give me the breaks to test and try new things. From the performing arts, Encounters Magazine, to helping fellow classmates and volunteering for the community, I think the first year will change me for the good. Nothing is guaranteed so I really don’t have much time to fear. I have to make my mark and go for it. So bring it on!

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