Author Archives: darya.merkulov

To sleep or not to sleep.
Sleeping brings me the utmost satisfaction.
Sleeping also gives me less time to study &do homework.
The line that must be drawn between sleep &work is indefinitive.
Sleep will help me survive the next day of school and work.
Studying all night will possibly help me get a better grade on my exam.
What is more important to me?
I’ve got a full day of work and school tomorrow.
How will I last without a long rested sleep?
Sleep happens to been one of the most important parts of my day.
To go to sleep or not to go to sleep?
One choice gives me such incredible satisfaction,
while the other will bring me anger and most likely utter exhaustion.
Why am I faced with this question every single day?
Why am I always forced to answer this question with the decision to have less sleep?
You would think at some point, this question wouldn’t be asked.
Unfortunately, I will probably have to sacrifice my sleep for more and more throughout the rest of my entire life.
Realistically, sleep will be sacrificed in order for us to achieve any significant success.
But my issue with this realism is accepting lacking sleep for almost the rest of my life.
Sometimes I wonder how much I could possibly go on.
I know I sound overexaggerative, but I speak for all of us when I ask,

Are we ever going to get a break?

I\’m only sleeping

It’s always difficult trying to define who you are as a person, most people say I’m a really laid-back hippy type of person, I definitely have to agree. I am an honest person who takes honesty as a really really really serious ideal. I’m also probably way too caring. I’m in a way very emotional, when the people around me are sad, I become sad, when the people surrounding me are mad, I’m mad, and when the people around me are happy, I’m happy as well despite what feelings I might have, mine all depend on the other person. Other people’s emotions have a serious impact on how I feel. I’m not sure if that’s a flaw, but it probably is because my day depends on the types of people I’m around. One more thing to sum it up, I’m a lover, not a fighter.

Coming to Baruch College hasn’t been a life changing experience, at least not yet. Going to a jam-packed high school of 4000 students, I’m pretty use to big classes and being independent in my own education and studies. So far, Im enjoying having breaks between my classes and starting later than in high school. But, I don’t really think high school was that different from college. I like pretty much all my classes with the exception probably of music history.The location of Baruch is pretty great, it’s right in the center of a lot of places like Union Square, Madison, and the Village.

A major concern I have with going to college right now is not being able to handle having almost a full time job and going to school full time. Its been really tough as it is, and this is only the beginning of freshmen year, it’s only going to get harder. So far, my classes haven’t been too hard, I haven’t been getting massive amounts of assignments like some other students. I can’t imagine how it’s going to be when I’m getting more assignments and tests, I’m probably going to have to quit really soon. Another concern I have is my procrastination. I’ve always had a problem with doing things early or even on time my whole life. I use to say that when I did things last minute, I’d be more focused and it’d come out better, but that’s probably just b.s. It usually causes way too much unnecessary stress that I don’t need. My final concern is the fact that I’m going to a business school when I know I don’t even have the slightest want to go into business whatsoever.

I don’t feel college is going to change me. I already know who I am as a person.