Author Archives: Javid Khan

Damn. I can’t really put it into words too much. The experience I’ve had is one that’s so different from high school. From the people to the schoolwork, it’s completely different. One thing I can say for sure is that it was a hell lot of work. I’ve had countless nights where i’ve had to stay up just to barely finish work, everything piles up and its a lot harder than I thought it would be. I blame high school for that, because it was too easy there, and walking into a school like this pretty much screwed me over.

Although, it’s not all bad. At first when I joined the LC and realized that it was an LC block I was like “ooh hell no. It’s gonna be soooo lame”. But actually, after getting to know everyone here and the benefits of the LC, it was probably the best decision I could’ve possibly made. This pretty much made the semester so much easier to handle, mainly because the people there (:

My main concern right now is the next semeseter. I’m hoping that now that I’ve had a taste of college and adjusted to it, I won’t have to struggle through that transition of a light to a heavy workload again, so it’ll be much easier. And hopefully I’ll find another class to fill my schedule, and then I’ll be happy. I”m not stressing too much, but I’ll try, that is until the world ends in the end of next year.

Who am I?

I follow my ways, my beliefs, and anything I find reasonable according to myself. What’s a man without his opinions? Nobody, that’s who…and I’m not that. My ethics are important to me, in fact, they’re my guidelines to my everyday life.

Don’t expect respect unless it’s given. Never hit a girl, unless she’s crazy and trying to kill me or something. There’s too many to think of. Although, there is one extremely important one, the one that’s my biggest guide.

I remember back in high school, when I just realized how unjust the world was. Then I wondered, “Why do bad things always happen to people, including me?” That’s when I first started getting into the whole idea of karma.

Karma. It was just a belief back then but today, one of the guidelines to my life.

It’s logical. I mean, it has some real life value behind the idea, it’s not just superstition. Like, if I randomly walked through the hallways in school and punched some kid in the face? I’d expect the possibility of getting hit in the face one day, most likely by him or one of his friends.

I use just the idea of it too. What goes around comes around, that’s specifically what it is to me. It’s why I would never cheat on a girl or try to talk to someone else’s girl, even if they were on the verge of breaking up. I wouldn’t want someone doing the same to me, so why do it to them? Karma is just me playing my small part in making the world a bit fairer.

I don’t like being the kid who “looks like that guy” or “talks like that guy.” The point is, I don’t like being similar to others. I just feel like there’s less attention towards me when I’m one out of the two, or three or more, rather than just the one and only. Then again, I’m not going to lie, I am similar to some people in some ways, but not because I want to be. That’s never the reason why. I try to be as unique as I can be, but apparently some other people just happen to take the same turns in the same direction.

I can be a hypocrite at times. But it’s not like I’d purposely contradict myself. If I know I’ve gone and been a hypocrite, I’ll admit it. When it comes to things like that, like arguments, I’d rather accept my faults and lose. It’s more of a benefit to me, at least I get to walk away and know I’m the bigger person. Besides, there are just some people you can’t win against, like my brother or dad. They don’t even know what they talk about half the time when they’re arguing, but they’ll still argue. I guess I learned that lesson the hard way.

Who am I? I know who. I’m nobody else.

I’m not just any person. I believe I am who I am, Javid Khan. I’m who I want to be, I don’t live my life trying to be like anybody else. Although, I do look at people as inspirations or role-models, the only steps forward I’ve taken are in accordance to what I really want to do. I’ve never been a person to give into peer pressure. Peer pressure is everywhere, especially where I grew up, things such as smoking are really common, I’ve been exposed to it since the seventh grade, yet today, I’ve still never tried it despite the many times I’ve been asked to. Karma is something I strongly believe in, although I’m not one to believe in superstitions or things of the sort. It’s just the fact that karma gives you something to be afraid of when you have the opportunity to choose the wrong or right path. It encourages me to do the right thing, because if I was to do something wrong, that would just come back to me in the end, whether the situation is of big or little importance. Who I believe I am can’t be summed up into a short paragraph; this barely scratches the surface.

– Getting around the place was one thing. I’ve been in Queens most of my life, and never really needed to go to the city for anything, and therefore didn’t need the subway. This is the first time I’ve had to take the trains constantly as daily commute, and I’m not very familiar with it or the city. After about a week at it, I caught on to it and it became easy, just as it was when I first started taking the bus when I was younger.
– I had to get used to the school. The environment at Baruch was completely different than back in my high school. The majority of people in high school didn’t really care, everything was mandatory so they were only there because they just “had do to it.” Over here, everyone cares about school, nobody complains and everybody is doing what they have to do to be successful. It’s a huge change, college seems like the exact opposite of high school when it comes to people.
– The level of work in college was way beyond a high school level. In high school, we were pretty much doing what was the minimum level work, because everything was “dumbed-down” so that more students could pass their classes and graduate, raising the graduation rate. Homework wasn’t of big importance. Honestly, in high school, I pretty much never did my homework and passed with high grades.

What’s going to make my Baruch College experience different from high school is the fact that I’m actually going to try here. In high school, everything was easy. I’ve gone through classes without doing anything for half the year and passing with high grades. I’ve never really put much of my full potential into things, because it wasn’t necessary in high school. Here, there are people everywhere that try to get their work done at their full potential too (unlike high school where nobody cared) and that brings the aspect of competition, which in turn will lead to me trying to be the best I can.

I think my first year at college is going to turn me into a more responsible person. I’m going to be a lot more organized and on time with things, and actually care about my work. After all, I’m paying to go here anyway.