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If you were to ask me, “who are you”
Sure id come up with a whole list.
Daughter, friend, girlfriend, student, etc.
But who am I really.
I have a whole list of possibilities of who I want to be.
Right now I’m lost in the world, trying to find my place.
I’m independent.
I’m going into business.
What part?
I have no idea.
That’s why I can’t tell you who I am.
Because I’m not sure yet who that is.
I can name you a bunch of things that describe me.
Happy, energetic, always giggling.
Smart, corny, maybe even sometimes funny.
but who I am now and who I want to be are two different things.
Now I’m the fun loving college freshman
Ask me again in ten years and hopefully you get a better answer.
My future is unknown.
It hasnt been predetermined for me.
It’s who I want to make of myself.
So give me a few years to answer your question,
By then I’ll know who I am.

^^that’s the monologue we had to write in class.

arent monologues something you say to yourself? basically like a conversation to myself? guess i didn’t do it the right way. ..

so here ill talk to myself for a little bit:

day one at the gym with ana, hopefully I will go everyday! maybe i should stop looking at the junkfood whenever i walk into a deli, it’s not gonna make losing weight any easier.. congrats on the b+ in philosophy, even though it’s not the A- i wanted, all is good..

this is kinda weird talking to myself, so ill get back to my english paper now

hmm..who am I? I’m a daughter, sister, bestfriend, girlfriend, student, sudoku-lover, cook, friend, listener, advice giver, dork, gamer, movie fanatic, neat freak, immigrant. There’s alot more to me, I just don’t want to spoil it :p Get to know me and you can continue the list.

Failure is a big concern for me. I’ve always been a go-getter so I need that nice gpa. It’s a huge transition from highschool to college because this is it. You can’t fuck up in college like in highschool and go complain to your teacher for a makeup. This is real. Four years left and then I’m in the real world. I’m also nervous about this commute. It takes me almost two hours to get to school, I hope it’s not going to make me want to transfer. But so far I’m not complaining. What I know I will complain about it this work load. I hope I can keep up and it doesn’t stress me out. Damn, I should sign up for some yoga classes.

In highschool I was really involved with school, whether it be cooking club or mediation I was always happy to be in school. But that won’t compare to Baruch.  I really want to get involved at Baruch, and I’m really excited about joining Team Baruch! I’ll be in school from morning till night.  Maybe I should move to the city! Any roomies interested?

I’ve always been the most grown up out of my friends. You need a mom, I’m there to baby you. College makes people mature but I feel like I have already matured. My first year will give me that much needed freedom because I go to college in Manhattan! Just saying I go to school in the city is exciting. I’ve already met some people I know will be there for me for the rest of my life! I’m actually really glad I chose Baruch, it opens me up to alot of opporunities.